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After Marriage Conversation New Years Eve

December 31, 2021 9:39 pm

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Moan

Jimi: So, just so you know .. what you got going on over there

Covert Narcissist: I’m turning off my alarms

Jimi: Let’s turn them off

Jimi: So, just so you know, we might air drop this but I guess you gonna have no time, but whatever

Eh, I couldn’t sleep either

But unlike you, the fact I couldn’t sleep didn’t mean oh where’s the first drug I can find that’ll make me sleep cuz I wanna go to sleep right now right now right now me me me right now right now .. no .. 

I was just like, damn I can’t sleep. I don’t know exactly why

So, need to have a conversation with you, that’s one, probably the bigger reason

Then I need to also get the food that I want inside of me, alright

And then, you know, I’ve also slept a lot 

So it’s not all such a horrible bad thing, right

So, I don’t go crying and figuring out the first relevant take that some random human being made up

Oh, it works so well, it works so well, blah blah blah blah blah

No, I actually know my body

So that’s the other thing about this conversation

Is Jimi knowing his body

So, Jimi knows his body

And he tells you he’s okay, that’s not a good time for you to come with your little silly opinions

Cuz that’s all they are

They’re not based on any fact, they’re not based on any logic

Just based on some bullshit

And strictly your opinions that is not based on anything

If it were based on something, sure

But if it’s like, “Oh, you got symptoms of Covid”

Umm, you do know that the symptoms of Covid are the symptoms of every other god damn cold, right

You do know that’s on purpose right

You do know it’s all a SCAM right

Like it’s really a scam, yeah I get people are dying

But they’re dying through a SCAM

If you die because of COVID I feel very sorry for you, because you died in a SCAM

So of course you’re gonna have the same symptoms as all the other bullshits

Just so, when something like this does happen

Where I believe in actual reality and you believe in the bullshit they tell you

We can then conflict

Then I can say, it’s Covid, Wait what? What the fuck do you mean it’s Covid?

But, we’ll get to that later

First, how much have you spent at Walmart the other day on your credit card?

140

What did you buy?

Covert Narcissist: The soups, the fruits, a water bottle, tampons, pads

Jimi: Okay, soups fruits and all this shit that you apparently bought for me. How much was that?

About? I don’t need a calculator

Covert Narcissist: Probably about 50, 60

Jimi: Okay, 60 bucks. I told you I was fine. I know my body. I know you don’t know yours, you probably don’t.

You’re just oh, drug drug drug. Oh, if I don’t need drug, okay I’m fine whatever

I know my body. So we better stop with the bullshit

I don’t care if you don’t know yours

Or you’re not as blessed to have what I have going on. But I do know my body.

I do also remember telling you, ”No, don’t bring me any soup.”

I remember saying that

And then at the end, “Oh, so you want me to bring soup”

Oh okay sure, whatever bring some soup.

So I remember, I remember that. I remember saying No initially 

And then you basically coerced me to bring soup, and I was like fine, whatever

I would have what I had. What I needed to have done was being done. So I was fine.

Then you said, “Oh, well, uh, let me bring some soup”

And then you bought soup for the goddamn, whole goddamn, weekend shit of bullshit

What the fuck is going on here?

I told you No, initially and you spent 60 dollars on bullshit

Now, I’m, okay, thank you I guess.

You know, you’re such a nice person whatever

But, you’re ignoring the other aspect of what we’re doing here

Which is, we’re not wasting money on shit

We ain’t paying money for no shit we used to pay for that don’t make no goddamn difference

And don’t nobody give a damn about that shit

We done with those days for a good month or two

Once again, you’re showing me you don’t understand what I’m saying

When you show me you don’t understand what I’m saying

I have to treat you the way you act

When you show me you understand what I’m saying, as most adults would

When another adult speaks to them, I treat you accordingly

But when you don’t, when you show me that you don’t

It’s not good

What’s your credit score on your uh

What’s your credit score?

Covert Narcissist: 593

Jimi: 593, is that a good credit score?

Covert Narcissist: No

Jimi: You make how much, how much money do you make?

Covert Narcissist: It dropped because of my credit card usage before I used it, I was a 693

I was a hundred plus.

Jimi: Is 693 good?

Covert Narcissist: It’s decent. It’s not great

Jimi: Okay, so it dropped with your usage, that makes sense.

But do you know why it dropped

Cuz I know exactly why it dropped. Do you?

Covert Narcissist: Yes

Jimi: Tell me. I said I know exactly why it dropped so hopefully you didn’t just say yes just to say yes

Covert Narcissist: It wasn’t paid off, so now they’re charging me for interest

Jimi: That’s not why it dropped. At all!

Covert Narcissist: Okay, why did it drop then?

Jimi: That’s what credit cards are

You pay them and you get to

That’s how it works

So if you don’t know the answer, say you don’t know, okay

Don’t say yes when you don’t know

Or just make up some bullshit, right

And oh, well okay that’s why it dropped

No, that’s not why it dropped

Covert Narcissist: Okay

Jimi: I’ll give you the answer and you can go research it later maybe

You probably never will do that, but whatever

Uh, but the answer of why it dropped is because 

You have a credit card

What’s a credit card?

Covert Narcissist: A card that has a line of credit on it

Jimi: Um hmm, and it revolves continuously every month.

So you can spend thousands of dollars, millions of dollars on it

But every month as long as you make the payment, we’re good

Okay, that’s a credit card

So you have this thing called credit

How much credit do you have? Right

Let me ask you a question

I’m doing the long way. I’m teaching you because you don’t go out on your own

So to me, you come off very uninspired

So I’m telling you some shit, but you seem to be very uninspired with what I’m telling you

But hey, whatever. To each his own

Ummm, so.

Let’s say you have $10000, right

But then you have 10000 of accessible credit which means if you need 10000, 

You can go access that shit right now, right. Because you have no balance.

So if somebody has 10k of credit, and that’s the only line they have

Will they have good credit? Yes or no?

Yes, because they can access 10k at any time. Right

When you have 10k and your balance is 9900

Well, how much access do you have to credit?

10 bucks right? And you still owe all this money over here.

So, is this credit going to be the same as the credit score of the person with zero balance?

No, right

So, if you keep it over here, that’s the only reason it’s that low

If you half it, you’ll be fine

So, it’s not the made up bullshit of, Oh okay, well, if I make the payments and it’s revolving

No, it’s understanding why it dropped 

It dropped because you have no credit

Cause you can’t spend no money

You have a credit card where you’re supposed to be able to spend money with it

But you have made poor choices with it, so you can’t spend any money because it’s full

So, until you correct the choices, we’re going to penalize you by dropping your credit score 

Because we have to, because you have no credit

Yet you have a credit card, but you don’t have any credit

Because you ain’t doing what you said you was going to do, which is pay the shit, right

Right, so that’s why it dropped

Because your credit line, amount of balance you had was right next to the limit, right

You said it was maxed out

But now you know why it dropped for real and not some made up bullshit that you’re gonna say yes just to say yes as if I’m some, you know, I’m not that stupid.

I dont’ know if you’ve figured that out yet. So if you know what you’re talking about

I’ll know you know what you’re talking about

Especially in finance

So, let’s not do that anymore. You know when you don’t know just say I don’t know.

Okay, anyways. So, now you know why it dropped so you gotta figure out ways to fix it

Does it make sense to go through life with a poor credit score?

Covert Narcissist: No

Jimi: And where did you learn that

Covert Narcissist: From you

Jimi: Oh okay, I dunno, I figured you would learn that before me. But umm, yeah it doesn’t make sense to go through life with a poor credit score because it’s retarded as fuck right.

So what are we doing now? Right?

I say I’m about to do this shit back the smart way

Cuz you know, Oh yeah, I might get a job I might get a job. All this little bullshit

I don’t care about none of that shit to be honest with you

None of that shit really matters

But you have a stable job

So, what I’ve told you was we’re going to start doing things differently

My way, and it is my way or the highway in this case

And if you don’t like it, there’s nothing I can really tell you

Right, I’ll just say okay, well, whatever, move on

But anyways, umm, sooo, we’re now starting to pay things down and do things a little smarter

You’re buying $60 worth of soups, bullshit soups I don’t even want

Talking about I got fucking coronavirus, I might have corona

That’s what we going to get to next. I don’t know, I guess I’ll give it another little 10 minutes

Ummm, this time I have coronavirus bullshit, Umm

So, so you might want to act that way, okay

The way you act that way, right

Cuz you’re supposed to be learning shit

I don’t think you’re learning anything, maybe you are

But, I don’t necessarily think you are, Right

Cuz you’re showing me nun

Actually, fuck that, I don’t know why I’m saying all that

Let me ask the source, the source is right here

What have you learned since we’ve started changing the way we’re doing things?

. . .

What have you learned that you didn’t know before? What have you figured out? That I did not tell you, let’s put it like that or I did not explain to you.

Covert Narcissist: Sigh. I’ve learned, ummm, I learned a lot of things unfortunately about this whole situation

Umm, some good things, a lot of good things, but then also a lot of bad things

Jimi: Give me one bad thing

Covert Narcissist: If someone, I’ve learned that if someone cares about you 

Jimi: Okay, that Ain’t what I was asking so as usual you don’t listen. 

My question was since we started doing things differently in the financial world

What else have you learned about FINANCE that I did not baby feed and spoon feed to you

So it can’t be good and bad you’re just bringing up other bullshit into my question. 

I didnt’ ask for other bullshit. If you want to address other bullshit, address the other bullshit

But, right now, I’m asking a simple question that need answer

So if you want to say good and bad, save that for your little self, so you can feel good about yourself

Cuz you have good and bad bullshit, and tell me what you learned 

Cuz what I said first was you haven’t blah blah blah blah blah, then I said wait a minute

The source is right here

So then I asked you, then you want to tell me about good and bad bullshit

So the question is 

Since we started changing the way we’re doing things

Supposed to be WE, Right

Covert Narcissist: Yup

Jimi: If only one person knows everything, it’s really not WE right, whatever.

Ummm, soo, what have you learned on your own about finance that you didn’t know before

That I have not spoon fed to you?

Covert Narcissist: To budget your finances

Jimi: Sooo, where did you learn that at?

Covert Narcissist: From the Numbers App. I thought myself how to use the Budget app.

Jimi: Okay, next!

Covert Narcissist: To pay off debts in a timely manner. I learned how to calculate interest charges.

Jimi: Well, that’s something real.

Pay off, I mean all you were doing was saying a bunch of random shit right there

But, give me something you actually go and learn

So you have to, to learn takes time, right

So, like oouuhh, Hey, I learned to uh, you know, do some really basic shit I can find anywhere on the Internet

I learned a number app

Well, you already used the number app for the wedding, so it should be a no brainer for the budget

Do you know how to read

Have you ever read your statement?

Do you know how to read your statement?

Covert Narcissist: Yes

Jimi: Of course, I’m going to test that out

Ummm, so, in my opinion, your initiative is very low, right

I’m telling you something that’s different because you’ve never thought

I mean, I don’t know, you gotta figure out on your own, right

I consider it common sense. You consider it whatever you want to

Okay, ummm. But, you, I’m very smart, no one debates that

And then here I am trying to say hey, we need to stop being dumb

. . .

And

. . .

You don’t seem all that interested

Cuz you’re like I learned, blah blah blah, I learned I learrned. Whatever dude

What you need to learn is you need to learn what you’re looking at, right

You just said I know how to read my statement, that what you just told me right

YET, to counter that silly statement you just made 

I told you 4 days, 2 days ago. I said this shit don’t look right

Why is 500 in here?

Oh well well well, you know, just some, just random shit. Now, I never saw the plus one hund

[interrupt]

Let me finish

I never saw the plus 1000 in there or whatever, okay

So, whatever, but then you woulda looked at your statement and been like Oh, what’s this?

Oh shit, and then you went back, oh shit, right

The only way you would’ve figured that out was to go through your statement

Then you would say, oh, well that’s why. Cuz they Ain’t got the goddamn money, duh

If you Ain’t got the money, then they got the money

That’s how that works. It’s real simple. It’s not brain surgery. It really Ain’t.

There’s no guessing game, there is no, it’s fucking numbers, it’s one, zero 2, 4, 5

Who gives a fuck. Okay

This is not guessing shit. This is not some shit where you got to be a genius 

Where you got to, ouuhh, I can hide behind some shit

No, it’s numbers. You can’t trick numbers. So, it would’ve been good when I said something

Ain’t right here

For you to have figured that out on your own

Then I figured it out very quickly by looking at it today

And I’m like looking at you

And you’re like, Where should I read, where should I read? Uh uh, what should I do

Then you just told me you can read a fucking statement

That’s not even a statement. That’s just a little silly ass balances coming in as you get them

So that’s very easy to read or I would hope so

That’s the whole point of doing that shit on the fucking phone in the first place

But a statement might be a little more complicated, but do you understand everything on the statement

That’s the more better issue

Do you understand the fine print?

Do you actually understand what you’re signed up for?

Do you actually understand what the credit card really is?

You know. That might be interesting. Who knows.

Ummm, but you just doesn’t seem like, you know, I don’t know

I just feel like there’s some things you can do that would show initiative for the appreciativeness, right

Like, anyways, I’m very open eyed and I like to like, you know, explore and do shit

You clearly, I don’t know if you ever do that

But you know, it clearly Ain’t for finance. Let’s put it like that.

Whereas me and finance, I was like hell yeah

Ummm, so, let’s talk about what’s about to happen

[Diversion Interrupt] (person will forget what’s about to happen)

Covert Narcissist: Can I say something?

Jimi: Okay, hurry up

Covert Narcissist: That statement wasn’t there. It posted on the 29th. You saw, cuz we looked at the bank statement yesterday that. It never showed up.

Jimi: Yesterday was the 30th.

Covert Narcissist: Right, it never showed up. Cuz remember we were looking at it. That return of mobile credit. It was not there.

Jimi: Well your balance was still 557 wasn’t it. So if you understand how numbers work, you understand you need to check everyday to figure out why it’s like that and then you need to call somebody and say, “Hey, why is it like this”? That’s it! It’s not.

Covert Narcissist: But Jimi, the credit was not there.

Jimi: Who cares.

Covert Narcissist: I’m just letting you know. So, you know, the credit wasn’t there. I didn’t have time to check into it.

[End Diversion interrupt]

Jimi: You had time, you just chose to put your time elsewhere. But what I’m telling you is umm, your credit card balance made it very clear. And then your balance would’ve made it very clear. You should know what your balance is right. It’s all numbers. So I said something’s off. Then then then then then then I looked today at it. So while you say that you can read statements or whatever you just told me, which you know whatever, I guess you can I guess you can’t. Maybe we should pull one up and see.

So when I looked at your balance, I said well that’s not correct.

So it was very easy to see what happened.

Cuz I know what your balance should be right.

You gave me your overall balance, right.

I know what your balance should be and you should too.

But you don’t seem to care. You just throw money at it and hope it all works out.

Okay, cool, whatever.

But you know what. That’s stupid.

So if you want to be stupid, that’s fine I guess, but you’re gonna be stupid with very little money. You’re not going to be stupid with a lot of money.

Not around me. If you want to be stupid with a lot of money around somebody, it Ain’t gonna be me. So go figure out that person that wants to be stupid around money.

Okay, so, you show very little initiative. That’s what I see as far as finance.

Although, it would be good to show a little more initiative so you’re a little more educated so you know, I don’t know. We can talk equally.

And I’m not telling you everything.

So then when you say stupid shit like, “Yeah, I know why my credit score dropped.” You actually know why your credit score dropped.

And not just make up some bullshit that sounds good from the internet.

As if I don’t know you got that bullshit from the internet. Just saying some little random shit.

Like come on bro. There’s reasons why credit scores drop. That just wasn’t it. I don’t know. [laughter] whatever.

So, your credit score should rise back and when it rises back, what should you do? You should ask for a lower rate before you start putting money on it. If you want to spend 140 because now you think you got all the money in the world, blah blah blah dumb shit. It just means you weren’t listening, and I don’t give a fuck. Okay, so that’s fine if you don’t want to listen, okay. But once we’re done with you, we’re moving on to me. The reason we’re doing you is because you’re the most expensive, so that’s called the smartest way to do something.

In case you didn’t figure that out

It’s not because you all special and you a female and all this little silly shit that you may or may not think.

So you feel so good, oh I got money everywhere.

No that’s not why, it’s because we’re doing it smart.

Why are we doing it smart? Cuz how much were you being charged a month?

140 dollars, that’s correct, you were charged 140 dollars a month

No, they weren’t going to pay your balance for you, you’re still going to owe your fucking balance, duh

They just gonna add that to your balance.

So imagine that, 140 dollars a month

Give me one bill you have that costs $140 every month

. . .

Or somewhere in that range. Yeah 140

Gi Gi Give me a bill that you have that costs 140 dollars every month. Name me one.

Covert Narcissist: My cellphone

Jimi: How much is that

Covert Narcissist: 150

Jimi: For just you

. . .

Huh

Covert Narcissist: Umhmm

Jimi: For just you.

Covert Narcissist: Yeah, I get the money back

Jimi: You get what money back, what are you talking about. You just said it’s for just you.

Covert Narcissist: Yes, it’s for just me, basically

Jimi: For your own phone, they charge you $150 a month for your phone

Covert Narcissist: It was an estimate. You said about give you something, so I said a cell phone bill.

Jimi: What is your monthly bill on the cellphone? You should kinda know that. Gotta look everything up.

Do #Balance or something. #BAL, maybe. Anyways, we gonna wait since you want to throw up some stupid little, some stupid idea

Yeah, that’s a pretty stupid idea

But I guess you want to prove that the cellphone

Covert Narcissist: Okay, well then, we can move on

Jimi: No no no, go ahead, tell me how much it is

Covert Narcissist: We can move on

Jimi: No, tell me how much it is. What’s the monthly bill?

Covert Narcissist: 160

Jimi: So that’s only your cell phone

Covert Narcissist: Yeah, me and Victors.

Jimi: Oh, so why you Ain’t say you and Victors? Hmmm, I’ve said only yours the whole time and you’ve never said oh no, it’s not only mine.

Covert Narcissist: Because you said what am I paying. That’s why I gave you that answer. I thought you wanted to figure the number.

Jimi: So is the 140 they charge you every month you and Victor’s 140 dollars.

Covert Narcissist: Umhmmmm

Jimi: Hmmm

Covert Narcissist: Yes

Jimi: No, I’m talking about your credit card

Covert Narcissist: The credit card, no

Jimi: Okay, so how is that RELEVANT

Covert Narcissist: You said give you a bill

Jimi: Yeah, where you’re paying $140 a month. You.

Not oh, I’m paying all this money I’m gonna get the money back

That’s all stupid technicalities that have no fucking meaning

Does it? Yeah, you’re not talking to a child.

Yes, it doesn’t. So you need to figure out how much your actual bill is.

And it better not be that damn much.

So if it’s over 60 dollars you kinda need to figure out why it’s so much, if you ask me

Or you might need to say, hey, I need y’all to adjust my bill

How long I been your fucking customer? Yeah.

Let’s Well, what kinda discounts y’all got. You know

I’ve been your customer for a long time

They kinda want to keep your business

You don’t know that? Oh no, Okay, well let me tell you how business works

Especially when they are multibillion dollar corporations with lawyers everywhere

Ok, just like you saw with Bank of America

They know what’s up, they know they about to stop getting their money that

They was washing off you

So now they gonna increase your credit line

So you’re like oh, yes yes, right

So, rather than being intelligent about what they just did

They did that to entice you of course to spend

Now, you go two thousand more to spend than before

Look, aren’t we so good?

Yes, they are so good

140 dollars now it’s going to be 200 dollars

And you know whatever, Anyways

So you probably Ain’t got too many bills that cost 140 dollars a month

And that’s only a little 7k dollars . . . whatever it was

Right? Right

So, when we pay that down

Like I say, you want to rack it back up, whatever

No one named Jimi care

I’m just doing that like I said to be smart so obviously you don’t care about being smart

You just care about whatever you care about, so whatever

Ummm, then, once we’re done with yours, we’re moving to mine

And once we move to mine, right now I said 100% of the money comes to me

Although I’ll probably direct the next one too and then after that

Then 100% of the money comes to me til you figure out how to do the direct deposit

Clearly, that’s a very challenging subject over at Emory or whatever the fuck going on

I don’t really know, I dont’ give a fuck, but I do know it don’t take 4 months to get no fucking direct deposit. I know that as a factual matter.

Umm, there are things you can do, you know

But hey, tell me all the excuses in the world, like a give a fuck about the excuses that you have for why it can’t get done

Ummm, sooo

Once that hits though, it’ll probably be 90% coming to me 10% going to you because

At that point, you shouldn’t have too many bills and you should be very happy you ain’t being charged 140 dollars umm, every month just because

And then you just cry and cry about everything

Just get shifted and handed everything instead of actually doing shit about stuff, right

So, you’re still going to do all your little girly shit right

Cuz you don’t really understand what I’ve said about hey, we gotta change the way we do shit

Right, I don’t think you really get that

I don’t think you really serious about it anyways

Umm, soo. So anyways

Like I said, once we pay your shit down

Which is probably just one more paycheck

Right, I don’t see another 8 million more paychecks

Umm, then yours should be paid down

Then if you want to keep wasting your money buying everything

If I say I don’t want soup, then you convince me to get soup

Then you buy 80 dollars worth of soup, then, you know, giggle

Then you know, now I guess I have to eat the fucking soup

Like what the fuck. Uh, I told you I was okay

Now, we move on to the next subject, which is I told you I was okay

I knew what was happening with my body

You a nurse, so you know better.

Yeah, but no, that’s actually not true, right

See, I’m a super professional in my field

And I dig into everybody’s field, cuz everybody needs my services

Right, you would never know from the way I market

But, in general, right, when I get hired, I get hired in all industries, right.

So, I know a lot, right

So you’re telling me, “Oh I’m a nurse, I’m a nurse”

But, yeah, but you don’t seem to know that you should do the stuff on the internet first

Before going to waste your time at a real doctor that specialize

Who will probably tell you the same exact shit that the internet tells you

Especially if you Ain’t doing that shit yet, right

So, ok, whatever, tomato tomate, okay

So, you can say what you want

But I know my body, so I know you don’t believe me

I know . . you know my body more than I do, all that bullshit 

That y’all crazy people believe, whatever, okay

But, we’re going to make it very clear today here that I know my body and I don’t

Need you telling me shit about my body and I got this and I got that

So, what happened last night with Uber?

Uber, at least 8 people was coughing in Uber. At least 8.

One person sneezed, and said you got some tissue

Sneezed damn good, except for the goddamn last ride of course, but whatever

Said you got some tissue, Yeah I got some tissue (laugh)

Right, so what’s happening? People are sick but they’re still getting in Ubers

I wasn’t coughing. I mean I was coughing every now and then, you know [cough imitation]. Some little small shit

But I’m just getting over the little bullshit I just had, right

So, there’s nothing really to my little tiny coughs, but I Ain’t cough with no passengers in the car

So I can at least hold the cough. I had one dude just coughing [cough imitation]

Coughed like 3 times, but these like good coughs, he wasn’t trying to hold it or nothing

Just [cough imitation] I was like damn. He Ain’t try to hold his shit or nothing

At least 3 times, right

So, but guess what, I understand, it’s also winter time. So, nobody cares

The shit always happen before winter time

You got headache, you got fever, you got, you got

Nobody gives a fuck, okay

Only people in little brainwashed, you know, liberal Emory 

I guess, whatever the fuck you got going on over here

Cares about the symptoms of Covid

You know about the side effects of COVID? 

Oh, my bad. Do you know about the side effects of the covid vaccine?

No, y’all don’t know that shit

You’ll sit there and gladly give it to a motherfucker 

Don’t tell none of the side effects of the vaccine

But sure, whatever 

Yeah, y’all some great people

Okay, cool. Ummmm, soo

I told you I was fine. You didn’t seem to believe me.

You buy me 50 dollars worth of soup, probably 60 or 70

And random shit that I didn’t ask for

I actually told you NO initially, I should’ve stayed NO

But I didn’t think you were going to buy 60 dollars worth of the goddamn thing, but whatever

Ummm, but that just means you didn’t believe me when I told you I was okay

I said my body is doing exactly what it should be doing

And then, earlier today I was telling you about why it felt like I had a stroke down here

And I was like, oh, I figured it out

Do you know why? Because I know my own body

So knowing your body is a great thing

You can actually say, Oh, you know I figure things out all the time

That’s what adults do, they solve difficult problems

That’s what I do. When you’re a senior at what you do, you solve difficult problems

Not the same problem everytime given to you by the same person

That’s not difficult problem. It’s a difficult problem as in okay hey, here’s something, here’s this

Here’s this, here’s this. Okay, how do we assess this and how do we come up with a solution that works to solve whatever the problem may or may not be.

Okay, soo

People are in my car. So let me tell you about COVID okay

Right now, COVID has transformed to a sneeze

I don’t care about COVID. I don’t fear COVID. You clearly do. But I don’t, okay.

So if you want to live in fear, live in fear, okay and whatever the fuck else

If I’m going to get some little cold or worse, I don’t care

I’m done with the COVID shit. PERIOD. Okay. I’m not getting vaccinated. I’m not getting tested.

I guess I had to say that again cuz uh you know, I guess you didn’t know from the 8 million other times I’ve said I Ain’t never doing none of those goddamn things, but uh

Yeah, that will never happen. Okay.

Putting no long ass shit down your throat don’t seem natural. I Ain’t doing that shit. I’m straight nigga. I don’t give a fuck what you got going on over there.

Ummm, so, COVID

Anyways, so basically ummm, [snaps fingers]

So, in the Uber car a lot of people coughing and sneezing and then we went over here.

Then I came back here, what happened when I came back here?

Oh, I came back here, then you were coughing.

Which is kind of crazy, cuz literally when I started my Uber trip you said you were fine.

You said you were pretty good, right. Which probably had to do with your balances were being paid down, but, who knows, maybe not, right.

By the way, you get a lot of power when you pay your balances down. Then you’re in the bargaining seat.

Right, when you owe, when you have a 10000 dollar balance and you owe 990 dollars, they don’t give a fuck what request you may or may not have, nigga

Pay some of that shit down

Right but when you have a 10000 dollar balance and you owe 50 bucks, ah, what do you want us to do so you spend more money with us [laugh]

Right, cuz everytime you spend money, they get a cut, but you probably don’t know that either.

Right, but these are all things you can research

These are all things if you’re actually interested in, you could do it, but I know I get it

All you do is go to the gym I guess in the room or maybe at the real gym and then whatever 

Then you go to work, and then I guess you go to sleep

And then you cook and then you’re too tired to do anything else

Sure, whatever. Okay, but, if you have initiative and ambition, then these are all things that you can learn

Umm, soo I come back you’re coughing even though literally, you know, some hours ago you told me you were pretty good

I guess me talking to you and saying what the fuck you know made you get whatever random shit you got, right

But I told you I knew what it was but you seem to not believe me because I guess you think you’re a nurse and think that now puts you with dominion over me

I can’t tell, sorry

Cuz you bought 60 dollars worth of goddamn soup when I said NO initially

So I don’t know what to tell you

I guess you think you know better

Umm, now that being said, I’m not, you know

Obviously you did it probably out of care

But, you’re not listening

Okay, you’re not listening

Hey, you can sit there and cry all you want to, but I’m crying too

Covert Narcissist: Who’s crying

Jimi: Oh okay, I don’t know, but you’re sitting there I don’t know what you’re doing, meditating over there, but I’m also crying

Covert Narcissist: No, because, I’m not meditating. It’s just because you don’t respect me . . at all and you think that I’m doing something to harm you when I did that out of care because you told me to . . .

Jimi: [Interrupt] Yeah, I get it, but

Covert Narcissist: So wait, I’m talking, let me finish

Jimi: Okay, go ahead

Covert Narcissist: You said that you don’t take medicine, so I literally Googled all things that people who don’t take medicine, what they can do to make them feel better

I’ve never seen you in a bed

So, that’s why I bought all that stuff

The fruit, the kiwi, things that I would never buy. The lemon, I got that stuff to make you feel better

I’ve never seen you in a bed sweating all day and you had a temperature

I’ve never, like you said, and you didn’t eat breakfast

And I know that it’s not good for you to go the whole day without eating something

Jimi: Didn’t I tell you I was fine though? Yes or no?

Covert Narcissist: Yesterday, you were pretty bad, you couldn’t eat anything, so I figured

Jimi: No that was not yesterday. That was the day before. (I’ve semi accepted her gaslight)

Covert Narcissist: Sure, the day before. You weren’t eating anything, so I figured you can get some soup down and I got jello. The things that you would like. I didn’t do it to Oh Oh yes, I have so much credit let me go ahead and spend this money.

Jimi: I get that, but you spent way too much money

Covert Narcissist: Wait let me finish. Spend. And I also had to get stuff for my period. My period started. And I didn’t have any cash on my debit. I wasn’t using my debit card. Right, so that’s why I used

Jimi: I ain’t talking about the period at all. I don’t care about that. I Ain’t say. Notice I’ve never said anything about that. That’s obviously a necessity. I don’t say anything about necessities. That’s not some toenail shit.

Covert Narcissist: Because you’re saying that I spent 140 dollars, you know.

Jimi: No, I’m talking about how much you spent when I told you NO initially. I said no to your request on chicken noodle soup, whatever the fuck.

Covert Narcissist: And then, but then you said go to Walmart. There’s some good soup there. And I couldn’t, so I went to Walmart, they didn’t have 

Jimi: Yes, after you continuously said, Well you want me to get some chicken soup? I said ok sure, I guess.

Covert Narcissist: So Jimi, Can I ask you a question? What were you going to eat then if you weren’t going to have the soup? If you didn’t want me to get soup.

Jimi: I didn’t really eat the soup did I?

Covert Narcissist: So you weren’t going to eat anything.

Jimi: Yes, and that’s fine because I didn’t do anything. When you don’t do anything, it’s amazing how you realize what your body can do. When you don’t do shit, you don’t need that much energy.

So I figured that out, yeah, now.

Covert Narcissist: You didn’t let me finish though. Please. So you figured out your body.

So let’s say that you were on your death bed. You don’t want me to do anything for you. Cuz now I’m being penalized for caring for you.

You know, I had . . that day

Jimi: I’m not on my death bed so what are we talking about?

Covert Narcissist: No, I said. For example, let’s say you’re

Jimi: No, let’s not say. I’m not on my death bed, so I don’t know what we’re talking about.

Covert Narcissist: Ok, you’re not on your death bed, sure. But if

Jimi: We’re just saying some imaginary shit.

Covert Narcissist: If you’re very sick, you don’t want me to do anything for you and then you penalize me for caring for you. Literally.

Jimi: I told you I was fine

Covert Narcissist: So, but I still got home and I still catered to you

Jimi: I told you I was fine was the issue

Covert Narcissist: So from now on, the next time, so

Jimi: It’s when I say I’M FINE. See, when I say I’m fine, and I say my body is doing what it should be doing.

Covert Narcissist: I realize that you’re fine, but it’s okay for me to care for you

Jimi: Yes, it’s not okay for you to counter what I say. So if I say we’re saving money, then it’s not okay to spend 80 dollars talking about you care for me when I tell you I’m fine.

It just means you weren’t listening to me and you don’t believe me, so you’re above me.

That’s all that means.

That’s all it could mean.

It can’t mean anything else.

Covert Narcissist: I’m above you?

Jimi: I don’t know. Your opinion of what should happen is more important than my opinion of it.

So whatever the fuck you call that. (The nail has been hit on the head, so now it’s time for diversion)

Covert Narcissist: So let’s say, I mean, did you forget that I mean, I literally worked all day, I came home

Jimi: Okay okay okay, but let’s move on though because you have to go to work. So I don’t know what we’re talking about right now.

Covert Narcissist: I’m not finished. I literally left work.

Jimi: We’re just talking about random shit

Covert Narcissist: I went to Walmart. Was in there for an hour for you. Came home before I changed my clothes. Warmed the soup up for you

Jimi: Here’s some sad story.

Covert Narcissist: You’re making it hard for me to love you. Just so you know.

Jimi: Okay

Covert Narcissist: You’re making it very difficult

Jimi: Alright, you done? Alright, so

Ummmm. I guess I have to rewind the tape to get to back where I was

But basically, ummm, there was some important shit though

Sooooo . . . fuck.

I guess we got to the emotional bullshit. Oh let’s get emotional on everything

Cuz you know, that’s how, that’s how Jimi likes to be loved. He likes to be emotional and talk about emotional garbage.

Ummmm, okay, so basically

Covert Narcissist: Are you happy? Huh?

Jimi: Let’s not change the goddamn subject. Ask that stupid question whenever the fuck you feel like it, which is not right now.

Covert Narcissist: Okay, so ???

Jimi: Well, when I say when the fuck you feel like it, I mean on your own time, not when I have my mic out

Okay, so

Petitoner: [nervous laugh] [sigh]

Jimi: So, ummm

Yeah, you were coughing, so what’s your point?

The fuck

Do I look like I’m sick to you? Do I look sick to you?

Covert Narcissist: So, ummm, what were you saying? I don’t have time.   (Mirroring, then urgency after twice shifting the goalpost after truth with confused and irritated partner)

I have like, not much time.

Jimi: Yeah I know, cuz you want to go on and on about your little sob story. So I can feel sorry for you.

TALKING AT SAME TIME ON PURPOSE AFTER URGENCY

Jimi (BOTH TALKING): Like all ya’ll love to feel sorry. To feel sorry for people. Are you happy? You’re making it hard to love me. Yeah yeah, whatever.

Covert Narcissist (BOTH TALKING): It’s not a sob story, it took two minutes. I didn’t ask you to feel sorry for me. All I said is I’m taking care of you and I did stuff for you and you show no appreciation. And you make it very difficult to love you.

TALKING AT SAME TIME ON PURPOSE AFTER URGENCY

Jimi: Okay

Covert Narcissist: It’s the truth

Jimi: Ummmm, so. Okay, well make it difficult then. You make it difficult for me to love you too, so you need to start doing what I say, maybe I’ll love you more.

Covert Narcissist: See how you say me too me too? Just say it from your heart. I’m speaking from my heart.

Jimi: It ain’t, it Ain’t from my heart.

[ARGUMENT STARTED ON PURPOSE FOR MORE DIVERSION]

But it’s basically going, but it’s so that you, it’s so that you figure out how.

It’s from a place of spite. Exactly, it’s from a place of spite.

No it’s not, it’s not. It’s not it’s not it’s not.    (Defending myself)

You just have to repeat what I say.

I know that you wanted to, I know that you wanted to upset me.

Jimi: Are you kidding me? I’m not a child. I’m not a child like you. But . . oh gosh.

Covert Narcissist: Yes, you are a child. Do you know what makes you a child? When I’m sick and I’m sleeping and then you come to wake me up to talk about finances.

That’s what makes you a child, yeah it does. It shows your lack of immaturity, if I’m sleeping I’m not feeling well and you came to wake me up

Jimi: Alright, cool. Well, look, you can do whatever you want. I don’t care. Like I said, we already in this shit so it is what it is.

Covert Narcissist: About what? I can do what I want about what?

Jimi: About whatever you want. I don’t really give a fuck. Okay. But we already in this shit

Covert Narcissist: What does that mean? What does that mean?

Jimi: Like I said, get your direct deposit, 90% coming to me, 10% coming to you.

Covert Narcissist: It’s already done. Guess what. It’s done. It’s done already.

Jimi: Oh, well that’s cute. Ummm, and then, so you’re gonna update to 90 and 10. Okay. And then can do whatever the hell else you want. Because since you want to sit there cry cry cry all goddamn day

Covert Narcissist: I’m not crying.

Jimi: I don’t do shit like that. I like to solve shit and get shit done.

Covert Narcissist: I’m just pointing things out. Jimi, who’s crying? Those days of me crying are over with.

Jimi: Nobody cares

Covert Narcissist: I’m not crying 

Jimi: Now, you’re magically bigger than your emotions, but you still bring all your silly emotions out. Though, okaaayy. ANYWAYS

Covert Narcissist: Jimi, I’m addressing what’s happening. So if you want to be disrespectful, go ahead.

Jimi: Okay thanks. So, I told you I was okay right, and then today on the phone, what had me irate. I’m talking to you, telling you what’s going on. Not cause I care about your silly ass nurse opinion. You know, what does your doctor want to tell me. You’re not a doctor, let’s start there. But you know, you’re not somebody I’m talking to because I give a fuck that you’re a nurse. That’s not why I’m talking to you. I’m talking to cuz, you know, you’re my wife. So you naturally tell people who are close to you this shit. That’s why I’m talking to you. Right.

Covert Narcissist: Umhmm

Jimi: And then, person wanna say it, “Oh, uh, do want get that difficulty”. And I’m like “Oh, uh, are you paying attention to anything going on here or in the world around Jimi”.

Covert Narcissist: You said what? What was that? What did you say?

Jimi: You said do I want to get tested for COVID like you don’t know anything about me.

Covert Narcissist: Uh huh

Jimi: Yeah. So, why you said that is beyond me.

Covert Narcissist: Um hmm

Jimi: I don’t know when I’ve made it okay. Then you wanna go back to oh well you know ummmm, it was okay to get tested for COVID in the past. By the way, that’s the other time you have right. So, you talk about, Oh, I’ve never seen you sick. Well, guess what. I also had a headache . . when else did I have a headache? When we went to the Trump rally. Right. Didn’t I say I know why I probably got that headache? Then you was like, oh it could’ve been at the Trump rally. I said, well I also did a lot of shit that kinda fucked up some shit. Didn’t I say that? Did you not test negative to I guess test for both of us? Now I’m telling you the same thing, but you want to tell me get tested for goddamn COVID. No I’m straight. I know what I did. I did it. So, don’t talk to me like I’m fucking stupid. Like I wasn’t playing the video game happily. Like just stop this shit, goddamn. 

Covert Narcissist: So the day you were playing the video game, right. Can I say something?

Jimi: You’re already saying it.

Covert Narcissist: So that’s another reason. Okay. Well that’s another reason why I saw that you know you don’t really care about me. I’m tired as hell. I haven’t slept good these past few nights. That day I wanted to go to sleep. You’re playing the video game. I didn’t sleep til 4 that night.

Jimi: What that got to do with anything right now? The fuck?

Covert Narcissist: I’m telling you this because I’ve had sleep deprivation. That night, I slept 4 hours. I had to come downstairs and you said oh I’m done playing at 3 am. And then I got up at 7 the next morning. Last night, I’m not feeling well. I didn’t sleep well, so I’m thinking great I can sleep on tonight.

Jimi: Yup, and that cost me also, so I guess continue to talk to me about other shit. [under breath] the fuck?

Covert Narcissist: So, anyway, so anyway, Like I was saying was I slept 4 hours the night before. Then last night, I’m thinking hey, I can sleep. And then, in addition to that, I’m not feeling good now. Now I’m coughing, now my throat hurts. And then you proceeded to wake me up. And I’ve been awake since. Another night of sleep deprivation.

Jimi: No, it’s not sleep deprivation. It’s you not knowing your body. So, you can blame whatever you want to blame

Covert Narcissist: It’s you waking, it’s you keeping me up. Jimi, it’s you keeping me up.

Jimi: Nobody’s is keeping you up.

Covert Narcissist: You did, you had the light on playing the game and I said Oh, you’re not going to sleep? I’m not going to fight with you, so I said, okay, that’s fine. I can go downstairs and sleep.

Jimi: Okay, so just say. You should’ve just you know 

Covert Narcissist: So this is me communicating with you. What would you like me to do? If I’m trying to sleep.

Jimi: Well, then. Just say that.

Covert Narcissist: I asked you, I said, Hey.

Jimi: You said you’re not going to sleep, that’s not saying, Hey, I’m trying to sleep.

Covert Narcissist: If I’m in the bed under the covers, clearly I’m trying to sleep. I wouldn’t go to the bed if I wasn’t trying to sleep.

Jimi: Uhhhh, if I’m playing a video game, clearly I don’t process things the same way. If I have a headache the next morning. If I have a thriving headache the next morning cuz I played too much video games, clearly, I’m not seeing things the same way.

Covert Narcissist: Jimi, Jimi, if you see your wife asleep or trying to sleep and you have the light on, it would be respectful to go downstairs. And just like this morning, if you see that I’m not feeling well, and I have a heater on and a blanket and a robe, it’s respectful to not wake me up. We can have the conversation when I wake up.

Jimi: Yeaahh, except for.

Covert Narcissist: Except you don’t respect me.

Jimi: If you want to say that.

Covert Narcissist: Then, so what was your reasoning for waking me up at 6 am when I’m [short-circuit – too dumb to make something up], why?

Jimi: Damn, did she hear how this conversation started? She don’t hear anything, does she? We gonna AirDrop this one though.

Covert Narcissist: Jimi, why did. I understand that you couldn’t sleep. Ummhmm.

Jimi: We gon AirDrop this one so that she can understand, you know, the silliness of her existence.

Covert Narcissist: I understand that you couldn’t sleep. I understand that you couldn’t sleep.

Jimi: Oh, shit. Okay, that’s amazing. She answered her own question.

Covert Narcissist: Well, that doesn’t mean that you should wake me up when I’m trying to sleep. Cuz if you’re trying to sleep, I’m not going to wake you up.

Jimi: Well, I’m sorry. I’m not in a cry baby world where you can’t wake up your. Where you can’t wake up anybody.

Covert Narcissist: It’s not a cry baby world. It’s not a cry baby world.

Jimi: Sorry, that just means you need to figure out why you can’t sleep. Why you don’t sleep healthy. Now, let’s look at my room. Let’s look at MY room.

Petitoner: So, Jimi. So, Jimi. Wait wait, I’m not done.

Jimi: Let’s look at MY ROOM. In my room, what do I have? Comfortable bed, comfortable thing to sleep on top of the bed, an air topper, right. Whatever, mattress cover, but we got a new mattress cover, but whatever. That Ain’t what I had, but whatever. Just mattress cover, who cares, right. But what do I really have? That helps you sleep in there?

Why you gonna wake up down here, but you won’t wake up up there?

I just gave you the answer.

Covert Narcissist: Jimi, I couldn’t sleep the night before because you had the light on and you were making, the game was making

Jimi: My question was what do I really have to help you sleep up there? I’m not questioning about random shit you talking about right now.

Covert Narcissist: You have the sleep aids. The thing that makes the noise. The salt machine.

Jimi: No, no, no, no, I don’t.

Covert Narcissist: Okay, what do you have?

Jimi: So, yeah, I don’t know, you need to kind of look at stuff and solve problems better. Okay.

Covert Narcissist: You have the blackout curtains

Jimi: There ya go! Because that has a huge deal to your sleeping and the continuity of your sleep.

Covert Narcissist: Yeah, but when do those work though? During the day, right?

Jimi: Yes

Covert Narcissist: They don’t help at night. It was nighttime. This is night, this is 3 am. And the light is on in the room. You have the light on.

Jimi: So, what’s the point of saying that estupido statement?

Covert Narcissist: Because, respectfully.

Jimi: Because what?

Covert Narcissist: If you see that I’m trying to sleep

Jimi: What’s the point of the estupido statement? What did I say? I say you need to figure out why you can’t sleep. So, I’m telling you what I’ve done to help me sleep. (bailed her out)

Covert Narcissist: I just why I couldn’t sleep Jimi, I just told you.

Jimi: You can’t say that shit because I can wake people and you can go back to sleep. If you can’t go back to sleep when you get woken up if you tired, then I don’t know what to tell you. I guess you got problems. You got real problems and the problem Ain’t somebody waking your ass up. Okay, you got real problems you better figure that shit out and don’t blame a motherfucker that has to wake your ass up. Okay, now shut that shit up.

[oh, so disrespectful, you’re waking me up, cry cry cry] Yeah, whatever. I Ain’t reading that bullshit. I’m straight with that.

Covert Narcissist: Jimi, can I make a common request, can I make a common request? Jimi, can I make a request? Respectfully, please don’t wake me up before I have to get up because I already don’t sleep well.

Jimi: Well, you better figure that out. So, you love to sit here, make up shit. Right, ignore finance. Ignore everything. Say you Ain’t got time for nothing. You Ain’t got this done, you Ain’t got that done. You know all this shit gonna be important. But you, I guess it’s not really all that important. You love to do all that shit. So, why don’t you figure out why you can’t sleep. You a goddamn nurse Ain’t you? You want me, the programmer to tell you why you can’t sleep. Is that what you want me to do now?

Covert Narcissist: I just

Jimi: You want to tell me taht I got COVID. Or I should go get tested for the dumb shit.

Covert Narcissist: Do you know what wakes me up? Interruptions, movement. I’m a light sleeper, already. Naturally. I know my body. I’m a light sleeper so if the light is on and I hear

Jimi: Your body, you done drugged your body. Uh huh.

Covert Narcissist: If I hear sounds and the light is on, I can’t sleep. And the light was on, so that’s why I came downstairs to sleep that night. I, if the TV is on, usually I can’t sleep. If the light is on, I’m a very light sleeper, I’ve always been like that. Always, so, respectfully, please, if I’m trying to sleep, can we have a discussion later?

Jimi: Possibly, but in the scenario of yesterday, uhhh, or whatever, you know. I let you sleep for a little bit I think. Or what happened? Well cuz you came downstairs. So, that’s why I came down here.

Covert Narcissist: I came downstairs. Do you know why I came downstairs?

Jimi: Hey, I don’t care about all that. I was up there and you came downstairs. You Ain’t say nothing to me. So I do know that. So, so don’t blame me, shit. The fuck?

Covert Narcissist: I’m not blaming you, let me explain. I came downstairs because I needed to get, to put a pad on and I needed to take medicine. And then, I when I went back upstairs to come and sleep again, I saw that you had the TV on, so I’m like, Oh, you’re not sleeping.

Jimi: Yeah, I wasn’t about to be sleeping when I wasn’t in no sleeping mood.

Covert Narcissist: So that’s why I came back downstairs to sleep.

Jimi: Okay, well that Ain’t my fault. You Ain’t tell me nothing.

Covert Narcissist: I saw you with the TV on, and I can’t sleep like that. So, I was like, and you were sitting up in the bed. So, I came downstairs to sleep for the other time.

Jimi: Alright, let me help you out. Let me help you out. Let me help you out. Let me help you out.

Covert Narcissist: Okay, go ahead.

Jimi: This is not that difficult. You just have to kinda figure it out. To figure it out, you have to experiment. Might have to buy this, buy that. I got plenty of sleep random shitz right. I got plenty of sleep lamps everywhere. Okay. So, probably want to look into it. But don’t ever dictate somebody else’s movement based on you. That’s selfish.

Covert Narcissist: What movement did I dictate?

Jimi: Uh, if I’m sleeping, then nobody can be alive. Everybody else gotta be dead too. That’s basically what you said. Okay. So, here’s what I’m saying.

Covert Narcissist: No I didn’t. I didn’t say that.

Jimi: Basically what you said. So, what I’m telling you

Covert Narcissist: I reject that.

Jimi: is I used to be like that. But that just a little complainer, right? Oh, I’m reading. Everybody shut the fuck up. Oh, it gotta be pitch silence so I can read. I used to be like that. Have you ever seen me tell you to shut the fuck up while I’m reading? I read all the time, don’t I? You see all those goddamn books right? Right. So when I was younger, I used to be, Oh, I’m reading. Oh everybody. Oh, you can’t see I’m reading? Respect me! Me me me. I’m reading. Well guess what, just because you reading doesn’t mean everybody reading. I’m in the library. Why the fuck y’all still talk in the library. Oh my god, I can’t believe this shit. Right. So, what did I do? Figured out how to read with people around. Figured out, okay, so, anyways, you just have to figure shit out. Right, so. Now you’re gonna be like, oh, it’s not the same, it’s not the same. When I’m sleeping, I cannot control that. Uh, but you can. So, like I said, there’s different things you can do. Right, different things you can try out, but you actually have to try it out and experiment. Right, expand your brain.

Covert Narcissist: I tried. That night I tried. I waited an hour and I was laying in bed, and I tried to sleep. You know I didn’t say anything.

Jimi: I’m talking about solving for the future. You’re talking about the past. I don’t get it.

Covert Narcissist: You’re talking about me, you, being uninterrupted while you’re reading. Right, you can read and with all this going on in the background. I tried that night. I tried it. And like right now.

Jimi: No, no. What I told you was. First, I couldn’t do it, so I was just like you. Everybody be quiet, everybody be quiet. So I guess you missed that part. So, then, after reallizing that doesn’t make any sense. I might want to figure out how to read even though things are going on so I concentrate more or whatever the fuck, but you know, I can’t have it be pitch silent and everybody is dead around me whenever I feel like fucking reading.

Covert Narcissist: So Jimi, if you’re 

Jimi: So, now I can read

Covert Narcissist: So, Jimi, if you’re sleeping and you have to get up in the morning. I’m not going to turn the light on and start Instagramming and playing videos.

Jimi: Well, I think that. Wasn’t I there first? Or did I come up there and turn the light on and start Instagramming. I guess, according to you. [inaudible]

Covert Narcissist: If roles were reversed, and that happened and you came upstairs. Let me finish before you start

Jimi: I just said was I there first, that’s all I was asking.

Covert Narcissist: Yes, you were there first

Jimi: Oh okay!

Covert Narcissist: But Jimi. If you see, if I see, if I was there first and then you came upstairs and you wanted to sleep, I would turn it off or I would go downstairs [gaslight]. Just like last night when, two days ago when you weren’t feeling well and I see that you’re sleeping, I’m not going to wake you up to talk about something with you because I respect your sleep. [Avoidance of conversation she is currently in]

Jimi: Let me tell you how it works, when someone is there first and you want to do something, and they’re not complicit with whatever you’re trying to do. Right, you say, hey, I want to do something, and then they’re like oh okay okay okay, cuz at that point, I’m in zombie stage anyways. You don’t know that. You think I care about all this little stupid little shit you talking about. Like I care about all this little . . it’s a fucking video game. The fuck is we talking about right now. Anyways, ummm. So, you go up there. So let’s say. Who cares what role is what role, right. So you better start, I don’t know, you just, you’re not getting this stuff, but it’s pretty simple. Okay, let’s assume everything is exactly switched. You’re playing the video game the whole time. I come upstairs and I want to sleep. Hey hun, I feel like sleeping right now. Can you please take that downstairs or mute the volume. I could’ve actually muted the volume. I didn’t even think about that shit til way after the fact of course. Right. You Ain’t gotta say. But you would be in much healthier thinking than I would cuz, you know, you have no clue what stage I’m in. Right, it’s late and I’m still playing a fucking video game. Ummm, whenever it’s a very thinking video game cuz you know, the way I play, I win just about every time. So, obviously I’m not playing like a brainless fuck. Ummm, so I was like hey hun, I want to go to sleep. I prefer the bed. Can you please take that downstairs. I’d really prefer if you do that versus anything so I can get it nice and dark in here.

Covert Narcissist: The problem with me saying that is if I were to tell you that. You’d say, oh why do you keep telling me what to do.

Jimi: Yeah yeah yeah, just try it. At least try that. Ummm.

Covert Narcissist: Okay.

Jimi: Wait, you said. Okay, give me your example. That same day what? Let’s see how relatable this is.

Covert Narcissist: That same day I was, that same day I was like, oh, give me a kiss. Give me a kiss like you gave me in 2016 [fake today like we’re still in the love bombing stage]

Jimi: Oh, gosh

Covert Narcissist: And then you said, Stop telling me what to do. [my unconscious on point]

Jimi: Come on, you’re talking about emotional shit that has no meaning.

Covert Narcissist: You said stop telling me what to do so you feel like I’m always telling you what to do. That’s why I

Jimi: No, that’s how I’m messing around. Are you kidding me, relax on that garbage. You took it seriously. Whatever, I don’t really care.

Covert Narcissist: The thing is I did take it seriously. That’s why I didn’t tell you [her projection failed to land, which is serious for narcissists]

Jimi: Okay, good for you. Now let’s move on. So, let’s switch the roles, the roles is now I’m in the bed, or wait, so in that role, you were up there playing a game, and I was coming down. Right, so how can we switch it. Now, I’m up there playing a game and you’re coming up.

Covert Narcissist: I said if you’re laying down sick, I wouldn’t wake you up. [exxageration on the role reversal, she added sick]

Jimi: I’m talking about the video game and you’re talking about sick, I don’t get it.

Covert Narcissist: We talked about that, the video game.

Jimi: No, I was gonna switch the roles so you understood how to do it. Address it both ways.

Covert Narcissist: You just did, so I get it. So you say, I should say, Hey, I’m trying to sleep right now. Do you mind taking the game downstairs?

Jimi: Yeah, so say, Hey Hun, I need to sleep, and you know I’ve been having sleep problems recently, right. Now do your emotional bullshit. Then it’ll wake me up and be like, Oh, well shit, maybe I should sleep too. I’m a fucking zombie right now. Right.

Covert Narcissist: Okay, that’s fair.

Jimi: So, that kinda makes sense, right. But you can’t just say, hey, Oh, you’re not going to sleep. And then I’m like, “no, I’m still playing”

Covert Narcissist: I just didn’t think that I would have to tell you that to be honest. I honestly

Jimi: Why does anybody care?

Covert Narcissist: So, that’s probably my fault. 

Jimi: Yeah

Covert Narcissist: I didn’t. So, I take the blame for that.

Jimi: Fuck?

Covert Narcissist: Now, I’ll just. I’ll communicate better.

Jimi: Okay, ummm. Anyways, and then the reverse. But yeah, it’s just communication. So you come communicate. Somebody has to actually willfully do something before you start saying some stupid shit, accusing me of random stupid shit. [no thank you, here are your projections back]

Okay so you can accuse me of whatever you want to accuse me of, I don’t really care. Okay, cuz I don’t care about people and their accusations.

Covert Narcissist: Okay

Jimi: Okay, I care about my life, how it’s living, and it’s good. If it’s good or is it not good. And you know, seems pretty good, so we’re good. So keep it that way. But let’s not have somebody telling me, let’s not have somebody in my fucking house that knows less about me than somebody out there.

Covert Narcissist: Ummm, hmmm

Jimi: Like you don’t know I’m not going to get a COVID test. I think you should get COVID test. Why, cause some dumbass media, some dumbass media person told you that dumb shit? The first thing you thought of was COVID. That’s the first thing you thought of? Really? So, you thought. Oh, uh, well, look Jimi, you are doing this and this, so you probably got COVID. Haha. Hoooraayyy. Um, are you the fucking media? Are you the media?

Covert Narcissist: Hey Jimi, I have like five minutes left.

Jimi: Umm hmm.

Covert Narcissist: Anything else you want to discuss? So, so I apologize for wanting you to go outside of your rights and your beliefs to get a COVID test. Next time [fake apology]

Jimi: Yeah, that’s

Covert Narcissist: So let me, I’m not done talking. So next time, I’ll get the test cuz I do believe in tests. I know you, you know. I believe in tests. So I’ll do it, and I won’t involve you next time. And next time, if you say that you don’t want something, as far as regarding your health, I won’t do it. I’ll listen to you. But respectfully, if I’m sleeping, please let me sleep.

Jimi: Okay, you just understand my beliefs and don’t cross them.

Covert Narcissist: Got it.

Jimi: Because I’ll die for my beliefs

Covert Narcissist: I hear you

Jimi: Okay, so I know a lot of y’all just sit there, “Oh, I believe in this shit.” And then go vote differently or go do some shit that completely contradictory to your beliefs. Whatever nigga. That Ain’t me. I’ll die for my shit. And I mean that shit. I don’t mind dying for what I believe in. Cuz if you don’t have anything to believe in, what the fuck is the point of life?

Covert Narcissist: Okay

Jimi: Okay, ummm, there might have been something else, but it’s all good.