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After Holiday With Family Conversation

December 3, 2021 12:30 am

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Covert Narcissist: So, I asked myself, what exactly happened. This is my views. I’m not saying I’m right, but from my lenses, one week after the wedding. There was a dispute between your brother and you at your parent’s house. I know you have kept saying we’ve dated a long time, we’ve dated a long time. But it’s still our wedding/honeymoon etc. staycation. I would’ve loved to just enjoy each other’s company following the wedding. Nothing else. I’ve saw some things that I’ve never seen before. I realized what could have been done to you especially with the gun being pointed at you. I guess you didn’t like my.  I get you that you did not like my response to Emmanuel using bible verses. But this to me is the most effective way to reach someone’s conscience, especially if they are Christian. I just wanted peace and to enjoy ourselves. As you know, I’m not a confrontational person, so when you asked me to say something to Emmanuel, I did it anyways, but I think you were upset about the weekend’s previous events and it spilled over to me. It was especially hurtful because you said I should’ve called the wedding off. I don’t take marriage lightly. I’m here for the long run. Times will be good. Times will be bad. Times will be great.

Jimi: The weekend’s previous events. What’s that?

Covert Narcissist: What happened at the house between you and your brother.

Jimi: What happened at the house?

Covert Narcissist: With your uncle pointing the gun at you.

Jimi: Oh okay, alright, go ahead.

Covert Narcissist: I’m not perfect and neither at you. I realize we both have flaws. If Emmanuel disrespected you blatantly, I would’ve had your back. Like I told you. Like I told him. You’re my husband and I support you whenever wherever. When you said I only did the wedding for you, it hurt more than you could imagine. I gave my heart to you to protect and I’ve trusted my life and future generations with you. Please be gentle with it. I’ve endured a lot leading to, a lot of stuff leading to the wedding, etc. Random arguments honestly about nothing. [dismissed the arguments and concerns of the Jimi to nothing]

I’m trying my best to start fresh. After all we are on a new journey. Regardless of what we’ve done in the past. And I put in parentheses how long we’ve dated. I apologized to you again, but it’s in writing this time, for not being receptive to your views of Trump. I hope you can forgive me. My ears and heart is open. But ever since then, yours seems to be closed. Can we be the couple that we once were? I’m here to be your wife and future mother of your children. I want our kids to say, wow, dad really loves mom, look at how he treats her and talks to her. I also want them to say the same about me towards you. Soon we’re gonna have little eyes watching and imitating us. I’ve been here through thick and thin. We are in the thin right now. But I know that great things are to come. I know you will say this is just emotion blah blah blah. But I needed to get this off my chest. I understand that you have been through a lot. But you don’t have to go through it alone anymore. Like you said, Bonnie and Clyde Ride or Die. This situation is not permanent. It’s just temporary.

Jimi: So that’s it? You gonna read it and that’s it and then throw it on the ground and then what. Okay. So [deep exhale], you need to listen, you need to listen well. Okay, cuz you’re not listening and that’s your problem. Hence, this is being recorded, luckily, because I bought this thing for something completely different but since umm, you know, not a, not a, umm, I don’t know. You know, since I’m a leader, I can realize, Oh, I can use this for other things as well. Right, which is this. So, that’s why it’s being used. That way it’s being recorded, so when you make up your whatever and say I didn’t say this or I said that, blah blah blah, it’s all right there on record, right. And it’s actually professional recording, so it’ll probably sound decent. Who knows. Anyways, you need to listen right now. You need to listen clearly. You can see my actions, you can see how I’m speaking. Okay, you can’t, you can’t see me in the voice memo, but you can see how I’m speaking right now. Okay, I heard what you said over here. Cool. Cute. Okay. It’s all cute, but let’s talk about reality. Because we don’t talk about reality, right. We talk in this fake world that doesn’t exist. Sounds like a Democrat to me, whatever. Umm, so, the reality is I’m an alpha male, okay. You don’t seem to understand that. You don’t seem to know what it takes to be with an alpha male, and you consider yourself an alpha female, although I don’t. So, let’s talk about some things.

You said, hey, I’m disappointed in Emmanuel, he’s very immature, blah blah blah. Whatever, crybaby stuff. Cool. I don’t need to hear that crap. I’m well aware of this. WELL AWARE. So I don’t need to hear it. So, now, we’re married. Imagine that. So I say hey, go tell Emmanuel what you told me. Oh, I’m not confrontational, oh I’m not. Hey, check this out, if we’re gonna be a family, it’s gonna be done kinda like my way. I’m not being no beta bitch family. I’m no beta bitch. Annddd, you better get with the program. That’s kinda how that works, so anyways. Let’s talk about you now. So you say, Oh, Jimi. I didn’t want to confront him yadayada. Jimi, it seems like you’re getting all emotional, it seems like you’re putting too much vested too much yadayada. Whoa, first off, you must not know me. I could care less about Emmanuel. He’s not around me okay. I only do that to make sure he knows what’s up. I could care less about the guy. He doesn’t move me in any way. Nothing about him has anything to do with me. Okay. I didn’t invite him to my wedding. Maybe you didn’t know that. Okay, I didn’t invite trouble to my wedding. Clearly he wasn’t up there on stage. All these things mean nothing to you. These are actions. Actions that support my thoughts. So, when you say stupid ass shit like, Oh, it seems like you’re so invested yadayada. Whatever. Say what you wanna say. Live in your imaginary world, okay, that doesn’t exist. But hey, it’s just a little loser that happens to be my brother, unfortunately. You see how I speak about that. Not, oh, I’m so invested yadayada. Okay, done, move, next. Okay, but now let’s talk about next. Next is hey, you said on your own. I didn’t make you say that. I did exactly what I was gonna do. When I was around a bunch of stupid. Stupid everywhere. Stupid up down left right, whatever. As my life usually is by the way. Stupid up down left right. You said, ummm, hold on, so then okay, so you said, Oh, I’m disappointed in Emmanuel. Then you had all your little stupid little things that you told Emmanuel. Yada yada yada yada. Wait what? Hold up. I don’t like this guy. Do you not understand that? Uhhh, why are we talking like a little bitch? I don’t get it. So, you said you were disappointed in Emmanuel. Well, guess what? I was disappointed in you and your response. That might not mean anything to you. I get it. Cuz you know nothing Jimi ever says means anything to anybody. Gu gu ga ga. Right, but I’m disappointed in your response. Can you imagine this? This loser ass fuck boy. Oh, uhhh, well, here’s what happened. Jimi walked out. Yada yada yada yada. Am I missing anything? And your response is going on to the mother and the daddy. Well you said that you didn’t like to. Giving him all this imaginary power he thinks he has. Like his fucking opinion matters. His opinion doesn’t matter in my life. I don’t know if you know that. So, if you actually validate that shit in front of me when you know I don’t give two fucks about the dude. I don’t know who you talking to, you know what I’m saying. Guess what? He ain’t around. I don’t give a fuck about motherfuckers who Ain’t around. Maybe you need to get that in your head. Okay, I don’t give a fuck about people and they little ass feelings, eh, little bullshit. Okay, I give a fuck about reality. So, why are we having this conversation right now? Cuz we had to wait for you to muster up the courage to have the conversation yada yada. All this little bullshit. Okay, now, if you’re an adult, you speak your mind. You say what you think. At least with me anyways. We don’t agree to disagree. I don’t do that bullshit. Do you know why I don’t do that? 

Probably not. But, I guess you’re not going to participate in this conversation. That’s gonna kinda not be good, but whatever. I guess I’m just gonna spit everything at you. I’ll send you a little video, hopefully. Hopefully, it’s uh, you know, whatever. Because I don’t do that bullshit because it’s all on Advice That Matters. Advicethatmatters, hmmm, what’s advicethatmatters? That’s a website Jimi runs. Jimi runs it. So, you were told to read some articles on advicethatmatters. Have you done that? I don’t know, but you haven’t discussed it with me. So I do know that. You haven’t said, hey, here’s some suggestions. You haven’t discussed anything. All you’ve told me about how busy you are, how bullshit bullshit bullshit. You’ve watched every little bullshit you know reality tv show, all these little random bullshits, right, but your own husband on a website, that he talks about. Says hey, get to know how I think. I don’t see you putting no articles out for the world to see. I’m telling you to go do xyz, and, oh, you gotta watch a little silly ass show to make you feel good about yourself. Alright cool, whatever, if you want to do that, do that, but that Ain’t how Jimi roll. Jimi roll with real shit. And let’s see what is real shit. Real shit is doing your own business right. By now, you might know what that means. You might know what that kinda looks like. So, have you tried it? Oh you have tried it. You tried it on a couple of occasions, I think. What painting. What was the other thing? Sewing. Sewing probably was never really going out the business, but you know, the painting anyways. So, you, painting. What did you do after you painted? You put your paintings on whatever. Oh so good so good. But nobody gave you any money. Nobody said, hey, let me just support you. I know it’s shit or you know it’s not really up to the professional level, but let me just go ahead and buy it anyways. That’s something Jimi would do. Jimi’s done that up down left right over and over again. Oh, this is all bullshit, I don’t have any interest in this shit, but I support you, so I just buy the shit just to support you. Right. Jimi does that all the time. But who are you and who do you hang out with? Oh, nobody. And then nobody supports you and then you get discouraged and then you quit and then you act like it’s my fault or the white man’s fault. I don’t know whose fault it is, but I know all this bullshit you’re making up. It Ain’t none of that shit. Okay, so before the marriage thing. Eh, whatever, you come, you know what I’m saying. Motherfuckers ?, motherfuckers Ain’t. You just don’t kinda know me. So that’s kinda like the issue. You think I’m this soft ass bitch ass nigga, or whatever the fuck you think I am. I don’t know what you think I am, but if you actually knew me. Like [groan]. Anyways, the shit’s kinda like assanine, but whatever, you know. You just have to kinda like get back to reality, get back to Jimi who Jimi is. And then throw on top of that. Fuck that, you know, I’ve been through so much shit since I’ve, you know, been around you. Even before that, I was still Jimi. The motherfucking man. You know, you know, just motherfuckers just know me. Just, that’s just it. Okay. Now, we throw in, Oh, I’ve been through all kinda shit. False this, false that, false, yadayada. Everything just a bunch of lie yada yada. And Jimi, the smartest nigga in the goddamn room ain’t got no goddamn job. And you think I’m really about to sit down here and listen to this bullshit? You think I’m about to sit here and cater to your little feelings? Yada yada yada. Wait!

You just said, I’m disappointed in a fuck boy Jimi knows has been a fuck boy for a minute. Jimi has disowned this fuck boy for a minute. The fuck boy never respects you. Actually, show me where he respects that you’re speaking to him. Show me that shit. Okay, I don’t give a fuck about (I read bible verse yadayada). Fuck that. I ain’t got time for that dumbshit. That’s all beta male bullshit. I ain’t got time for that shit. And just cut that shit out. Show me where this man, this fuck boy, who I’ve made clear I think is a fuck boy. Show me where he respects you. You can’t show me. Ohh, yeah. Well I’ll give him a bible verse and then he didn’t respond. And you think that’s respect? He was just like well I’m not going to respond to this bullshit. That’s pretty much what it was, cuz the rest of it was all disrespect. Didn’t address anything you said. Didn’t give a damn that you didn’t, that you were disappointed in him. Never addressed that shit. Talked complete shit about your man. And then says, did I miss anything? And what you gonna respond to that? Oh, let’s talk about your mom and your step dad. So I guess you didn’t miss anything. Yeah, you’re completely right you faggot.

And I’m supposed to be like, Oh yeah, this is it [clap clap] yeah. This is great. [clap clap]

What an amazing relationship here. You know. Bonnie and Clyde. Yeah, that’s Bonnie and Clyde right there for ya. Nigga says, that nigga Ain’t shit. Did I miss anything? No no no, uh, let’s talk about your mommy and daddy. You said yadayadayadayada bullshit.

Covert Narcissist: So, I did. I was gonna show you this later, but I felt like he did say. I mean, I don’t know. This part where I said can you be the bigger person. And then he said he tried to be empathetic. Anyway, I felt like it was rude. So that’s why I hit him with the Bible verse. Because he said, I can send it to you.

Jimi: You felt like it was rude and you didn’t actually stand up for anything. Then he also said, Jimi asked me a question about money. And what did he say? He basically ignored me. Right? So that would’ve been a great time if you actually defending me. If, first I would’ve been like, man, who the fuck do you think you talking to? That’s what I would have been like. But I know you Ain’t nothing like me. I get it. All this beta bullshit. But that would’ve been a great time to say Why didn’t you answer what he asked you? Don’t you think if y’all having a conversation, if you wanna actually heal something, you would like answer his questions? Why did you not answer his question? Then see what he has to say. It would be very obvious why. You know. I’m not, I’m not, I don’t know, I don’t know the guys a faggot. I don’t know and I don’t fucking care. But it would be great, but since you’re so non-confrontational and the faggot says, the nigga asked me a question about some stupid, uh, about shit I thought was stupid so I wasn’t going to lower myself to his whatever the fuck. That would’ve been a great time since you Ain’t gonna say, hey hey hey, hey, cut this shit out bro. We ain’t talking like that about my husband. Since we KNOW you Ain’t gonna do that shit, which is why I had to proofread for you. That would’ve been a great time to, Hey, why didn’t you answer his question? I mean, hey moron, you’re trying to fix some shit. The nigga asked you a question. He said what does money do, or whatever he says I asked him. That’s not a question that is you know out of the whatever. I mean the bitch always talking about money. So why you Ain’t answer his question?

None of that shit. Umm, I thought I was gonna ask about the step-daddy and the mommy and then I was gonna give him a stupid Bible verse, and the Bible verse gonna change his whole heart and change his whole life.

Yeah, fuck no!

So now you see what I respond to that bullshit. Then he got blocked because I’m a fucking man. That’s how shit works around here. Okay, if you don’t fucking respect me, we have a fucking problem. And I know when I’m being disrespected. I’ll let you disrespect me, trust me, I will. I don’t care who you are. But then you’ll be OUT.

Covert Narcissist: Can I read what he said?

Jimi: Sure.

Covert Narcissist: So, when I told him to be the bigger person and then he was. He said I’ve been the bigger person my whole life. And then he said I tried to be empathetic about how I would feel if my younger brother was bigger. Anyway, just stupid stuff. But he said for 3 months to a year, he was calling you every week and trying to catch up and build a relationship

Jimi: Nobody gives a fuck, okay. The guy is a bitch and that’s that. So, I don’t care what he’s saying. I know what’s real. Okay. All he’s saying, oh, I was trying to yadayadayada. Nigga, shut up. The nigga is a retard okay. So if I’m speaking like that way and you’re my Bonnie and Clyde, then you gotta make sure he knows I have zero respect for the faggot and his imaginary whatevers. Anyways, I don’t care, all I’m trying to say is. If you’re gonna try to say you’re with me, you might want to be with me.

Covert Narcissist: I am. Is it but is it okay if I finish this, please.

Jimi: Sure. I can read it actually. Let me read it faster.

Covert Narcissist: Sure

Jimi: Because I’d much rather read it because I thought he was blocked.

Covert Narcissist: This, no. It was before.

Jimi: Hmmm, so I didn’t already read it?

Covert Narcissist: No, you didn’t. I don’t think you read it. So I took a screenshot of it.

[Pause to read text messages]

Jimi: Anyways, this is all garbage, right. Let’s see. Uh, I don’t know where the hell all this shit came from. I didn’t see this shit. Ummmm, but regardless. What I did see would’ve made any fucking alpha male irate. Considering the little bitch should pretty much be in jail and not have a job right now. And that’s factual. So I don’t give a fuck what you say or he say. Okay, you could be in jail right now and not have a job outside of me coming to the rescue of a bitch nigga. You understand. So all that bitch shit. Uhhh, he wasn’t appreciative of my efforts. Your efforts, nigga, what have you done for me? Like, tell me one thing you’ve done for me, please. Just one. Your efforts, nigga what? All I did was advise your dumbass. Only reason you have a job right now is because of me. That nigga would get fired all the time because he was supposed to get fired. I get fired all the time for complete bullshit pussies around me. Okay, that nigga get fired cuz he was, cuz he’s just cocky as fuck. And then, oh, he didn’t appre .. Nigga, man nigga, just shut the fuck up with your imaginary fairy-tale fiction life with your Democrat bullshit. Now, what happened when we over there at uh. Oh, let’s talk about the alpha male. Remember when we were just driving and somebody thought it made sense to speed up next to me. Now, I get you Ain’t supposed to go after every thing and I don’t go after every thing, but I do go after most things, so I get, you know, I need to calm down on that shit. I get all that. But did I just sit down and say, Oh yeah yeah, okay, you got it?

No, cuz that little fucker could’ve had me in an accident. So when you disrespect me, I don’t give a fuck who you are. And guess what color they were? Oh, I’m so surprised they were black. I’m so surprised. Well, actually I’m not, but, you know, the way you be worshipping black people and dumb shit. The crazy ass shit I be seeing. Oh yeah, gu gu ga ga. Uh, whatever.

Anyways, what color were they? Black. And then what did Jimi do in response? He did exactly what the fuck he’s gonna do. Period. Whether you around or you not. Cuz Jimi is a person that doesn’t give a fuck about people and their feelings. Doesn’t waver the shit. Doesn’t try to be everybody’s fucking best friend and everybody like me. Nah, you either like me or you don’t just like who? Donald motherfucking Trump.

I told you I’m way worse than Trump, but you don’t seem to believe me. Cuz you think I’m just a little bitch nigga. Whatever. I don’t know. Can’t call it. But you know, that’s kinda why we’re having this conversation. You know, 3 or 4 days done went by. We was talking about some shit. You know what I’m saying. Then motherfucker wanna start crying. It was hurtful. That shit’s all real. Like, I was pacing steps. Pacing, I don’t even remember why anymore. PACING. For a good 15 minutes. The same shit I was doing with Emmanuel when you were communicating with him and I said, ouuhh, I have a plan. See, I pace to get a plan. If I’m pacing I’m pissed. I shouldn’t be fucking pacing, I got a lotta shit, you know. I got a ton of shit going on right now. I should not be PACING right now. Okay, I don’t live a life that’s worth pacing. Okay. The life that we lived or that’s in my house. I built this shit. Okay, no Jimi, it wasn’t you it was God. Whatever.

Covert Narcissist: Sigh

Jimi: Y’all can do little beta stuff all you want, okay. But making good choices and knowing what’s real and not real has a lot to do with it, okay. So you can say God all you want to, but anybody can say that shit. When anybody can say it, it don’t have that much weight. Okay. So, for that, I’m disappointed in you and your response cuz it just looks like, Oh, yeah, you know, anything I’m missing? The bitch nigga, you know what I’m saying. What I saw was the bitch nigga uh, left, ran out . . ran out the room. He ain’t say nothing about the gun being pointed. You know, I guess he talked about ignoring me, but you didn’t think ignoring me was a big deal, even though you’re trying to, you know, make amends. Hey, I want to make amends. I’m gonna ignore you. Yeah, you’re gonna disrespect me while we’re making amends you fucking retard. Anyways, ummm. So, you might want to get with the program, okay. I don’t know what else to tell you. I’m not gonna be you, I have no interest in that shit. I don’t no no, no beta bullshit. Alright. What’s the last couple of things I’ve done for you that you should be way thankful for? Cuz you certainly haven’t expressed it so tell me what’s the last couple of things that I’ve done for you that you finally listened to me and you should be very thankful for?

Covert Narcissist: Elevating my knee.

Jimi: Okay, good. I’m glad you realize that now. Okay, what’s another thing.

You might not get it, but you know, the whole MacBook. Right, I bought it for you for a different reason, and then you thought it made sense to give me a composition book for the wedding. And now it’s Oh, wedding was so great. Uh, yeah, if you think it’s, whatever. So, those are two things that took you from one direction to a whole another one. What else have I told you? I have said swimming, there’s nothing better. Uhhh, yadayada, whatever, that Ain’t gonna sound like a motherfucker that wanna listen. I ain’t got time. I ain’t got time for this shit. Uhhh, every time you ever listen, which you ever do. You always get phenomenal results. [that she will take credit for in the future]

So now, right, we know your knee shit was a good result cuz the week of the wedding your shit was fucking up. And you weren’t even, you know what I’m saying, shit was just all fucked up. So, we know all the little injections and shit, whatever the fuck, you know, yeah, I’m sure they maybe were helping, but you know, you kinda want to maximize what you’re doing. That’s kinda like duh, you know, but to someone like me who does that all the time, right. So, oh, I’m the best nurse in the world. Whatever the fuck that means. I don’t know what that means, but maybe you are, maybe you’re not. I don’t know. I’m not there with you. Okay, but there’s compartments of life. Okay you’re the best at what you do whenever you leave the house and go work for hours. Now be the best wife. Are you the best cook? Are you the best person at working out? Are you the best person that getting stuff done around the house? Are you the best person that. Those are all places areas where you can be the best. And I maximize all those areas. To do that, you have to actually work. And you actually have to want to maximize those areas. That’s the life I live. I live that life. I don’t make excuses. I don’t say, Awww, man I got this I got yadayada, right. When you were burning out. Oh, I’m burnt out. No you’re not, you’re still going. What do you mean you’re burnt out. See so it’s like, Oh, as soon as you get uncomfortable, yadayada uncomfortable. I love being uncomfortable. And it gets me phenomenal results. Soon as you get uncomfortable [crying sounds], I’m burnt out. You’re not burnt out, you’re still going. How the fuck are you burnt out? Do you know what a burn out is? You go way past uncomfort. So I burn out, I max out for everything. That’s why I say you need to go for 6 months on this shit. On this knee shit. Not even 6 months, maybe, you know, at least a month. Just depending. It Ain’t like you doing no athletic shit. But anyways, it need to be more than just, Oh I feel good, okay, now I’m done. Like, NO. Now you can do that. But that’s not maximizing anything. Is It? It doesn’t hurt to fucking elevate your knee does it? What’s that hurting? Outside of, oh I don’t want to do it cuz yadayada. Whatever. I don’t know, don’t really care either. But, I don’t live that silly life where I’m just sitting here doing dumb shit up down left right, and then act like I’m not. And then say, I’m the best thing, you know, best thing walking. Okay. Another thing. Well anyways, I don’t even know about all that. So anyways, those are things you should be thankful for and you might want to start listenting. So when I say shit, you might want to say, how can I get it done versus how you can’t do the shit. Which is what you love to do. You’ve done that shit the whole time I’ve known you. Literally, the whole time I’ve known you. You’re nothing like me, basically, let’s put it like that. Soon as, like I said, soon as the going get tough, it’s time to quit. It’s time to, you know, whatever. I don’t know, but it’s time to just say and make excuses, boy. Golly. You had 80 million excuses. I was like damn. You got more, anyways, whatever. Ummm, cuz I ain’t really here to talk about you, but I’m here to set the stage for what being married to me means, okay. I shouldn’t be fucking pacing. I got a lotta shit going on, that’s why I couldn’t do more for the wedding. Oh, that’s right, the wedding. The damn wedding. That’s the other thing I’m disappointed in you about. So I’m disappointed in you about the little bitch ass response you gave to that bitch nigga. But the wedding, I said hey, let’s make a video. She get all sad and shit. [cry cry] Bonnie Tyler, oh, it’s a sad song. First off, let’s start with, I Ain’t wanna explain every little thing to you, but it’s I have to explain everything to you. So it’s like, no, I need you to explain shit to me every now and then. But you’ve never really explained anything to me. But anyways. Bonnie Tyler song is a great song. We both love it, which means we’re going to move to that cuz of our love for it. It’s got a lot of you know, diifferent things in there where, you know, it could be marriage. Forever is gonna start tonight, you know whatever. But, I guess skip all that.l But the crowd sees the energy. But [oh, it’s gonna be a sad song]. Alright, do what you want, men, I Ain’t got time for this bullshit. Right. That’s a beta bitch. I’m not a beta bitch. But I was a beta bitch for y’all. What else happened with the wedding? I said hey, let’s do a video. [cry I don’t like any conflict]. Lola, I ain’t got time for this shit, bruh. Like, I don’t know what you’re talking about, don’t nobody in your family know me. You don’t know me, clearly. Soo, you know, I kinda wanna do what I want to do too. You know, that’s what the whole world’s about. It’s about moderating everybody’s wants and needs. So, if I’m paying 20 thousand plus, I think what I want should happen. PERIOD. As a leader of the family. Oh, but no, Jimi gotta be a beta bitch and sacrifice himself just keep being a beta bitch, keep being what he’s not. Don’t nobody in your family know who the fuck I am. My family don’t either but I don’t give a fuck about the. I don’t talk to them, right. Who in my family do I fucking talk to that I give a fuck? I talk to my mommy, my daddy, I talk to Seyi. Seyi did fuck shit to me too, trust me. Seyi done did plenty of fuck shit. But, we talk today. Or, you know, we would talk more if he was here. But we don’t have a relationship like this dumbass fuckboy little brother that I’ve disowned on multiple occasions. Right? So if you say, Hey I wanna get better, then we’re good. And there’s also this thing called a website, like I said, these thoughts are on there. It might be a gold mine to say, Hey how does my fucking husband think? No, she’s watching fucking Netflix and some fucking little marriage bullshit show. You know, in comparison to what she knows is out there that she could do. You know. That might actually benefit her. Oh, let’s watch some stupid little marriage show as if Jimi gives a fuck about any goddamn show or anybody’s goddamn opinion. Jimi don’t care about neither them things. So, what did I say? I said hey, I came up here, you know, you were basically a little pansy which I knew you was gonna be. He basically pushed you around like you was nobody I said look at this bullshit and then you was watching Ahmad Arbury, and you said. Well it just got on there. Damn how is that damn why is it when I come up here then, you know what I’m saying, like damn, anything else could have come on. Whatever who cares I’m sure it had just got on there, sure, cool. Then I’m like okay whatever it’s on there, but you watching the shit. I mean shit I see that shit I’m changing that shit cuz I already know that they trying to manipulate your mind. So, I said hun, what you think about Armad Arbury? Silence. Later on she tell me. I was thinking of how to say it because you weren’t going to like my answer. So what you’re really telling me is you have the same opinions as before. So what you’re really telling me is by the way you go to advicethatmatters. I keep saying that shit then you might figure out what I’m saying. So what you’re really telling me is although you’ve been enlightened or at least have a different view than the silly ass view you hold based on some silly video that you watched.  You don’t care. You gonna say I feel what I feel bullshit. Or whatever the fuck your little friend heard. Or whatever. But you’ve been enlightened though. So, I said hey, what do you think about Ahmad Arbury, not because I give a damn if you you know want to think like me. You wanna say I’m free in America I’m gonna think what I want to think. That’s fine do that shit. I don’t give a fuck. But [giggle] I there you to say Ahmad Arbury had every right yadayada. I don’t even know what you’re gonna say because there’s nothing to say about that faggot except for he’s a faggot. Just like my fucking little brother. He created all kind of trouble and then he died, like he should have died. But that Ain’t why I asked you that. I asked you that to see how healthy your mind is. Right, because you talking about oh, now we married. Okay, so you know, you know whatever, Oh I think marriage yadayada, whatever. But if I have children with you, and you think it’s okay to go trespassing have all the neighbors calling the cops on you and then when a car is driving because they heard the ruckus from all the other neighbors and you’re the guy taht broke into their shit by the way and then you think it’s okay to say well I was cornered I mean this is iall mad eup shit that the media made uip anyways so that’s what I’m saying is your mind healhty or not. This is all mad eup bullshit. Uh, so what happened, as my uncle, who you know ain’t the fastest guy in the world even agreed when he saw the video. So I don’t so anyways, a healthy person would say well, I don’t know. I can’t you know, I can’t really go on that cuz you know I don’t know. That’s what a healthy person would say. When you don’t fucking know don’t say you don’t fucking know you don’t need to fucking know like you know shit. That’s why you motherfuckers can’t fucking fight. And then say Anthony Joshua gonna beat Usykk. Nigga shut the fuck up. The fight wasn’t even close. The nigga threw in the towel [laughter]. Y’all niggas don’t know shit so you can say what you wanna say but that’s just America, at least the crazy ass people up there right now using the dummies. Yadayada, anyways, so you gonna tell my child you can do all this ruckus bullshit. Okay, everybody calling the cops on you. Note that bitch always calling the cops on me, anyways or faking the shit. You know, fucking faggot. Umm, okay, the whole neighborhood calling the cops on you. Then when people approach you in a van with guns, WITH GUNS, you gonna tell my fucking child oh they can’t do nothing to you it’s okay yeah if you’re cornered go whoop they ass even though he wasn’t cornered, it’s all made up bullshit. He snuck the guy. He whoops the guys ass. In the moment, in that little moment [snaps fingers], you have no clue what’s gonna happen. You’re not in control. A guy is whooping your ass. Like, if you Ain’t experienced that shit, shut the fuck up. Don’t even say a fucking word, like that’s what healthy people do. If you ain’t experienced that shit where you’re fight or flight or whatever, don’t say a goddamn word. Now, ummm, so, if you look at the Ahmad Arbury case. Oh, well I think he had a right or whatever bullshit. I don’t know what bullshit you could say, the guy was wrong from every angle possible period. And then it turns up he’s the guy that stole from them the month before. It’s like bro, you got nothing here which is why it went away initially and then of course the mob came when they saw a video. So you see a video and what’s the saying that might apply to that video of people who have been here long before you was ever here, that might apply to that video? The saying goes something like this. Looks can be deceiving. You see how you have to realize what the people way before you were saying. Right, people are communicating to the next generations all the time. Right, when Michael Jackson, or you know, somebody or Tupac. Huh?

Covert Narcissist: I said yeah, looks are deceiving.

Jimi: When Tupac says ummm, and they say it’s the white man I should fear, but it’s my own kind doing all the killing here. Tupac older than you, but he’s speaking to the future generations. Hey, they say it’s the white man I should fear, but it’s my own kind doing all the. There’s all these very very consistent things from people who actually know shit, have experienced shit. So, you see a video, I got riled up with you just the same, you was there. Then I said no it’s all bullshit. Because it is all bullshit. Just like George Zimmerman. All that shit is all bullshit. So if you can’t healthily think. If you can’t think healthy in a healthy way. Oh, they gunning us down. That’s the biggest bullshit I know. Every black person is like yeah this white person helped me out. Every single one. But then oh, now they gunning us down in the street because some dumbass media told me that dumb shit. Hey, if you can’t think, if you can’t think healthily.

Covert Narcissist: Did I ever say that at one point. I never said that.

Jimi: I don’t know, but if you can’t think healthily. Right, I’m talking about Ahmad Arbury because you’re trying to phrase how you gonna respond to how, you know, trying to entitle your opinion to some bullshit of 

Covert Narcissist: Because, the reason I didn’t say anything cuz I saw what happened Thanksgiving. And I’m trying to sleep. That day. That’s why I didn’t want to say anything. What I was gonna say is I don’t think the guy recording that should’ve happened to him. That’s the only thing I had to say about it.

Jimi: Ummm, the thing is none of them should have happened to. But you don’t think that. You think that the other guys were guilty right.

Covert Narcissist: I think the only one guilty was the one who shot him.

Jimi: Why is he guilty?

Covert Narcissist: But then again, I don’t know all the details

Jimi: Why is he guilty? See, with me you have to actually say why you think what you think. That way we can actually get to a place of you know knowledge. Cuz you can’t just say shit, Oh, I think he’s guilty. WHY? If you don’t ever answer why and you just say you know, sweet nothings to create chaos for real shit. Uh huh.

Covert Narcissist: Because I believe. Because there were 3 men, they could’ve to me, I mean I’m not. Well, let me just start this. I’m not a police man.

Jimi: There we go, umhmm.

Covert Narcissist: I’m not a FBI investigator. I’m not a security. I’m neither of those. I’m just someone watching from the outside.

Jimi: Right, like everyone else, umhmm.

Covert Narcissist: I’m not there, so this. My opinion. I’m not saying that it’s the gold standard. It’s just something that I saw. I’m not like. My opinion.

Jimi: Okay, keep going. Okay, I already know all that. Keep going.

Covert Narcissist: No, let me just say this, let me just say this. My opinion is not going to change what’s happened at all. That’s why I’m like why are we even.

Jimi: It is going to change what happened because it reflects, you know you learn from your mistakes. So you learn from other peoples mistakes too. That’s how that works. So, it can actually change what happens. If you actually say, hey, this is not okay. But go ahead. GIVE ME YOUR OPINION. The fuck.

Covert Narcissist: So, what I’m saying is what’s happened in the world out there or in Brunswick, GA is creating conflict in this house, when I have like, I’m not gonna tell my kids, oh go. Jimi, please

Jimi: Hey hey, I’m talking about your opinion on Ahmad Arbury, you talking about other shit right now, so I don’t know.

Covert Narcissist: This is about Ahmad Arbury. You said that.

Jimi: Well, let’s get to it. I don’t know. You seem like you going around in circles. You talking about your kid. You said your kid. What you talking about your kids for. I said Ahmad Arbury.

Covert Narcissist: Yeah, I was gonna relate it to Ahmad Arbury, Jimi. Like now, I completely lost my train of thought.

Jimi: So, you think that the guy is a racist. Let’s find this goddamn video.

Covert Narcissist: Did I ever say that?

Jimi: I don’t know.

Covert Narcissist: I never said that.

Jimi: You said he’s guilty of something or some imaginary crime. I don’t know what to tell you.

Covert Narcissist: I never said that. I never said that. You’re not listening. Any talking point that you see on or you may see on CNN or The View, you put those words in my mouth and it’s not fair.

Jimi: So why is he guilty is my question. You said he’s guilty.

Covert Narcissist: I said, the only thing I said was the person was not guilty who was recording, that’s what I said.

Jimi: Okay, so that means the other guys are guilty so why are they guilty.

Covert Narcissist: And I never said they were guilty. The only thing I said is it would’ve been more better to me if they were gonna detain him by calling the police.

Jimi: They already did. Everybody called the police.

Covert Narcissist: Jimi, jimi. Okay, I’m not a police person. I’m not. I don’t, like

Jimi: Okay, so it’s well established the police were already called. They even told him the police are on the way. So what else do you want them to do?

Covert Narcissist: So the police. Okay, so the police were already called. Then they should go to their homes.

Jimi: No, they should not. You don’t tell people what they should and shouldn’t do. That’s not your job.

Covert Narcissist: Exactly, so I’m not a policeman. Exactly!

Jimi: No, it Ain’t got nothing to do with policeman. Got nothing to do with policeman. Has to do with being an American. Has to do with American. You don’t tell another American what to do. 

Covert Narcissist: Jimi, jimi, I’m not. Clearly I’m not. I’m not telling them what to do or anybody what to do.

Jimi: But you just did, you just said they should. You just said the police are there so they should. No, cut that shit out. They already did what they did. So now you give your opinion based on what they did. You don’t say they should. That’s actually unAmerican. Because we’re free in America so your little opinion of what they should do has no meaning to anybody.

Covert Narcissist: I understand that, but I feel like anything anything that I say, you’re gonna say oh yes, this is negative use, like anything that I say at this point 

Jimi: I don’t know what you’re saying.

Covert Narcissist: Anything that I say, you’re gonna say oh yes what you think is evil. It’s Democrat. That’s why, like, I don’t even wanna. I didn’t even wanna talk. Because I came 

Jimi: Okay, so are we gonna talk about it or keep talking about nothing? What are we talking about right now?

Covert Narcissist: Listen. What we’re talking about is I

Jimi: You said they’re guilty. So why are they guilty is my question. I said Why? I need a why.

Covert Narcissist: I didn’t say that they were guilty

Jimi: You can’t just say they guilty just out your ass

Covert Narcissist: Jimi, I didn’t say that they were guilty. Okay.

Jimi: Uh huh

Covert Narcissist: I’m not a politician. Like I don’t have all intel

Jimi: But you support the verdict, and you support that they were held responsible and all that stupid shit right. Yeah, I’m trying to get to how you think. That’s why you said, you said I was trying to phrase my whatever

Covert Narcissist: I didn’t say that, Jimi. I didn’t say that. You put those words in my mouth.

Jimi: Okay, well, say what you want to say then.

Covert Narcissist: I said the guy recording should not have gone to jail.

Jimi: Okay

Covert Narcissist: And then I said I wish, probably shouldn’t have said should. It’s just how I’m talking. I’m not like Hitler or dictating or what should happen. More like a wish. I wish that they just had called the cops and just left it alone. Then maybe no one would be dead. That is all.

Jimi: Right, but do you understand how America works?

Covert Narcissist: That’s how I think about it.

Jimi: You understand how America works? Do you understand why that’s just wishful thinking that has no meaning?

Covert Narcissist: Yes, they were doing a civilians. Right, so I’m not going to put myself or my future kids in any kind of situation like that. Hopefully they won’t be doing anything of that sort, looking for.

Jimi: But you can’t control that.

Covert Narcissist: Right, so I would tell them not to do it, okay. Ahmad Arbury is not my kid. I don’t know him. And I don’t know the people either. And honestly I don’t care because I don’t know them.

Jimi: Oh, so you finally figured out you don’t care.

Covert Narcissist: I don’t really care because I don’t know them. Like I’m not going to be emotionally invested to the point where I’m gonna, you know, have arguments with you when like. No, it’s not that important to me. I honestly don’t give a damn.

Jimi: Holy shit, I might be friends with this girl on Facebook. [laughter]

Covert Narcissist: That’s the mom

Jimi: Oh, that’s the mom. Oh, nevermind. Oh, nah, hell no, I can’t be friends with her. Umm, let me find this response. I don’t know, it just seems like, you know these crazy people, you know, it’s called the mob is what it’s called.

Covert Narcissist: Okay, but I’m not part of the mob

Jimi: Uhhh, actually it kinda seems like uh, you’re not speaking out against the mob. You Ain’t speaking out against them, so.

Covert Narcissist: Yeah, becasue I”m not a politician. All I care is about you

Jimi: HEY, I just said it’s part of the mob. What the hell does mob have to do with goddamn politics. Isn’t that some shit that you learn in church?

Covert Narcissist: Jimi, I’m not. Jimi, I’m telling you I’m not a part of the mob. 

Jimi: Alright, let’s look, let’s look, let’s look, let’s look [shhhh] Let’s look

Covert Narcissist: I watched it

Jimi: Oh, you’ve seen it already?

Covert Narcissist: Yeah

Jimi: Did you laugh at him? Do they look like criminals to you?

Covert Narcissist: No

Jimi: Do these neighborhood. Did these guys go in the neighborhood. You guys are laughing at this guy.

Covert Narcissist: You said who was laughing?

Jimi: Everybody in comments. Come’on it’s the mob. After the first one, it don’t matter. Do you see that. He has no clue what to do right now. None.

Covert Narcissist: Jimi, I’m not against them. Okay.

Jimi: Yeah, but these are white supremacist. These guys would help a black person in a heartbeat

Covert Narcissist: I never called them white supremacist.

Jimi: [frustrated sigh]

Covert Narcissist: Are you speaking in generally or what

Jimi: You said [giggle], you said that they should go to jail right? You said they’re all g. You know.

Covert Narcissist: The only thing I said was I wished that they

Jimi: But they didn’t because they are free in America. They can do what they want. They can do what they want.

Covert Narcissist: Right, it’s not my decision.

Jimi: So you better teach the kids that shit. Okay, I wish sh, I wish I shuda, I wish I, nobody care about that shit. People do what they want to do because they are free. Somebody want to kill, they can. You know what ha, do you know what happened in the school? They went and shot everybody. Then there was a hero. You see this guys face, he’s just like, like what the fuck. Dude, I had my gun, I approached the motherfucker that was trespassing in our neighborhood. He tried to whoop my ass. It’s all there on fucking tape. AND YOUR FINDING ME GUILTY OF MURDER.

Covert Narcissist: I think, do you want to have a conversation with your mom about that?

Jimi: Why?

Covert Narcissist: Just to get her opinion on

Jimi: We can, but most people don’t understand anything and they’re just mob people, right. So I was trying to tell you and your family that, right. Remember, oh, well we have a separate side conversation whatever. Ummm, you can see my family is just as bad, but I don’t care. You see how I speak to my family, right. Then when you’re stupid, I let you be stupid. I don’t really give a fuck. I’m not about to sit out here and waste my goddamn time with you. That’s why my life is kinda nice. Right. And now we have Eugene, who his landlord is basically being kicked out I guess, I don’t know what’s happening now. But the police come to be evicted. 

So you’ve seen this video and I guess you didn’t feel sorry. I guess you’re probably just like, Oh, look at the. Anyways, I don’t know. Cuz you certainly didn’t tell me. Low and behold, Eugene voted for who? Donald Trump, so I can’t really blame him, but this is all thanks to Biden I’m sure. I’m sure Biden hasn’t helped out, you know when gas prices are fucking 8 million dollars a goddamn gallon.

Ummmm, so how can Eugene who’s not even college educated vote for Trump, but then all these college educated people don’t vote for Trump and say stupid shit that somebody told them to say because they have no earthly idea what the fuck they’re talking about? How is that?

A house divided cannot stand. A nation divided cannot stand. How is that? How is it that all these morons are around me. Barely know anything, right. Don’t work for shit Just, you know, sit there, make excuses up down left right about every fucking little thing going on in they little life. And you know, everybody gotta feel sorry for them. As if Jimi hasn’t already been through all that shit on his own. You know, let’s do some ummm, what’s that dude’s name? Peterson. Let’s do some Peterson shit right now. You know. Reflecting is hard. Right, I’ve done all that shit. All that shit that you saw, they talk about. I’ve already done all that shit. So I already know what the fuck he’s talking about. But reflecting is hard. It’s difficult. To say, hmmm, I actually might not know as much as I think I do or I actually might not be as bomb as I think I am or what the fuck ever. Reflecting is hard.

Covert Narcissist: Yeah it is hard, especially when knowing like when you’ve hurt somebody and listening to people’s feelings instead of.

Jimi: Yeah, no no no. No, I’m not doing no feelings. I don’t do feelings.

Covert Narcissist: Yes, because that’s hard. It’s hard for you.

Jimi: No, actually it’s not hard. I’ve been doing that shit for too long, you don’t get it. So you say it’s hard

Covert Narcissist: Because Jimi

Jimi: I just did it for the fucking wedding.

Covert Narcissist: Jimi

Jimi: I just did that bullshit for the fucking wedding.

Covert Narcissist: Jimi

Jimi: Okay, shhhhhhut it.

Covert Narcissist: You said you did that bullshit for the fucking wedding. [cry voice]

Jimi: Ohhhh, yadayada. Here we go with the feelings again. Because Jimi’s feelings don’t matter. The way Jimi thinks and Jimi’s feelings, they don’t matter [yadayada you just say you did it for the wedding]

Covert Narcissist: Jimi,it’s a serious question. I’m serious. It’s a serious question. I’m not doing feeling stuff. You just said

Jimi: Ummm, I just said I just compromised who I was for the wedding, correct. I did not do what I would have done. Correct. Because you were not by my side. Because you did not want conflict because of all this bullshit that ain’t got nothing to do with me. That’s why. Correct, yes, that’s true.

Covert Narcissist: So, I said that yes, you can do it. I said that I prefer you wouldn’t because I would. So the reason. I mean you said that I’m compromised. I compromised you. All I said was wanted the celebration to be about us and about love. That was all I said. I never said, hey, hey, don’t express yourself cuz

Jimi: Hey, if you’re miserable on the video if I’m saying let’s make a video together, that way we’re happy and we’re talking to the people. As you know, it’s a happier thing. And then consistent and then you’re so miserable [yadayadayada] Right. You kinda telling me what to do right there so you can say what you wanna say, but you know, reality comes back and says. Well, look at this pathetic video. She’s all super sad and shit. Then I’m supposed to sit there. She clearly has no interest in this shit. But, if you had actually united with me and been Bonnie and Clyde and shown. Okay, hun, I’m with you, I’m about you. Let’s get this shit done. Let’s do it together. Let’s become one. Then, of course, I would’ve been like, hell yeah, let’s do it. Cuz I wanted to do it. That’s why I told you about it. Duh.

Covert Narcissist: Jimi

Jimi: But, you. You’re super sad [yadayada]

Covert Narcissist: Well, it’s very sad because you said that you were, you know, gonna make an announcement to the guests and let, you said you were gonna let. Basically insult my family. That day, that night you called my family stupid. That’s why I was super sad.

Jimi: Well, are they smart?

Covert Narcissist: Yes, my family is smart.

Jimi: Really? So you think that voting for Biden was smart. You think that saying Trump’s a racist is smart. Is that what. So tell me why you think that’s smart. Please. I’m dying to listen.

Covert Narcissist: In relation to Trump and Biden, I never, I never

Jimi: When you say smart, you have to be well rounded and smart. Anybody’s that smart, and I mean trust me I know a lot about a lot, in case you don’t know.

Covert Narcissist: I know, but do you, you do realize, like. How am I supposed to be excited when you said that, you know, you’re disrespecting the family that I came from on something that they’re helping us do. Like my mom, they’ve spent so much in preparation to help us for the wedding and I especially don’t want to disrespect them and then you know, in front of the whole world when they’re doing so much to support us.

Jimi: Uhh, there was nothing about disrespecting your parents. I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Covert Narcissist: You you, but you, that’s what you said.

Jimi: I said what?

Covert Narcissist: That’s what I got. That’s why I was emotional.

Jimi: I said what, what did I say?

Covert Narcissist: You said I’m gonna let, I’m gonna tell your family about themselves. They think that they know me. They were disrespectful and I’m gonna let them know in the video. I mean that’s why

Jimi: Yup, that’s what I said. I didn’t say nothing about your mom and dad. What I sad was if I’m going to marry you, these strangers, note they’re never in the pictures, but they just come around when they think they important. Or they think some, you know, some nice shit is gonna go down, but they never in the goddamn picture. These strangers need to know who I am. That’s what I said. Then I’ll feel way more comfortable marrying into your family. Don’t you get that you marry the person and their family? You don’t get that? Huh. So, if I want to feel comfortable, then I need you to know who I am. That way, you’re not like my uncle and my brother.

Covert Narcissist: So, right

Jimi: So let me tell you what I text my uncle, but go ahead.

Covert Narcissist: So, the only thing I was saying was if we’re gonna do that, why do it in a display where there’s gonna be outside people.

Jimi: Well, I don’t know. I don’t know where to do it.

Covert Narcissist: So, that’s why I felt like it was no longer

Jimi: We didn’t do it before we got married though, I know that, so I do know that.

Covert Narcissist: Right, but it could’ve been. It could’ve been at our house

Jimi: Blah blah blah. Alright anyways.

Covert Narcissist: But Jimi, can you just hear me out. It could’ve been at our house.

Jimi: Well, that none of this happened though. So, everything you’re saying is all wishful nothings.

Covert Narcissist: But I didn’t. I never stopped you from doing it. Jimi, I never stopped you from doing it.

Jimi: Well, thanks for helping out.

Covert Narcissist: How would you like me to help out.

Jimi: I don’t know, didn’t I say I want to do it? And it didn’t happen, so what are we talking about? I’m a stranger to your family. I don’t know if you know that. Okay, all this family in law bullshit is all bullshit. We made all this shit up to make the marriage work. But I’m a stranger to your family end story. Okay, sooo, oh yeah, let me just go in there and [yadayada]. Come on man, you have to actually, you know, like, I would bring you to my family. That’s how that works.

Covert Narcissist: Jimi, likewise I’m a stranger too.

Jimi: Yeah

Covert Narcissist: Right

Jimi: Correct, there we go. Now we’re in reality. Okay.

Covert Narcissist: It is. And so we’re trying

Jimi: Yup, we’re now in reality. Uh huh.

Covert Narcissist: And we’re and I’ve become your mom’s daughter. I’ve become your wife.

Jimi: Sure

Covert Narcissist: Same as you, my dad call you his. He called you his oldest son. Like we’re trying to build.

Jimi: Sure, but that’s all American things to make the marriage work of two people. So, here’s what I text my uncle. I said. You can wake up at any time. So I sent him the same video you, I sent him the same video I sent you. The one where Ross Smith talking about the media, right.

Covert Narcissist: Which, which one?

Jimi: This one. With the media. Remember the media guy that you put dislike. And I sent you another one and you disliked both of them. Why did you dislike them? [her avoidance got her into more trouble]

Covert Narcissist: Cuz I don’t like what was in the video [stupid answer, dummy]

Jimi: What does that mean? What did you not like?

Covert Narcissist: Sigh, I don’t like what I saw in the video. [sigh after avoidance]

Jimi: Okay, good. So, I sent it to him right. The same video where you know, at a fucking Thanksgiving we’re talking about a fucking guy doing self defense and a fucking loser going through people’s neighborhoods. That’s what we’re talking about at Thanksgiving. Meanwhile, this shit happened years ago [laughter]. Both of these shits, that’s why we had the trial. Trial doesn’t happen til years later. Right, Y’all do know that right? Anyways, we were talking about that dumb shit at Thanksgiving. We ain’t talking about the guy who just killed 6 people at a goddamn parade that’s black and filled with hate. We ain’t talking about that guy. We talking about fucking guy that was trying to, you know, had sexual offenders trying to kill him. Okay, shut the fuck up. Anyways, then I tell my uncle, you can wake up at any time, cuz I’m like damn, I completely forgot about this fucking black guy. Remember, remember hold on hold on. I’m a go back to that. Also, so I text him, you can wake up at any time. Also, learn gun etiquette. Clearly lacking in your case. No need to blame the white man. Nothing about that is respectful because I have no respect for what he did to be honest with you. And honestly, I was going to try to be all you know whatever cuz he dying bullshit, but I’m like fuck that. You don’t put no goddamn gun to my goddamn face, bro. Like I’m not okay with that shit at all. Okay, what if I had dropped down to the ground, you would have to shoot me real quick. I move quickly, okay. I don’t know if you slow fucks know that. I move way faster than all of you. I swim, so I’m way way more, you know, just trust me, I’m not scared of any any of you fucks. What if I had dropped down to the ground, went through the table. Right, you know he was sitting at a goddamn table. So he pointing his gun at me like he cool shit. I drop down, I crawl. Get to the table, with all my force, come up through the table right onto his fucking face, which will probably dislodge the gun, maybe, maybe he shoots through the table, who knows, whatever. I pull his ass out and I pound his ass! Cuz he points a fucking gun at my goddamn face. And then I’m all legit. Cuz he pointing a fucking, like I could’ve had him arrested I think. I don’t think you can point a gun at somebody, I don’t think that shit’s okay. But I could’ve just called the cops and said hey, arrest this faggot, he was pointing a gun at me. Everybody saw it. So anyways, I was like [oh yeah yeah, he about to die bullshit]. I was like, man, fuck that. Right, anyway, let’s go back to the loser ass brother. I was talking to somebody else. You were there, you saw it. And then he gonna say well, he was trying to tell me how to live. Did I miss anything? [Oh yeah, you didn’t miss nothing Emmanuel, you such a good guy]. Anyways, I was talking to somebody else. I said, No, this is not no accomplice bullshit, right. Y’all were talking about, Oh, I was in the car. I didn’t even know they were robbing the store. Why the cops supposed to know that shit? Right. So I had to enlighten this little girl who heard shit from the media, who like to basically do slight of hand. It’s basically a magic trick, right. Say, oh well, [Yuuuuuuuup . . laughter] Anyways, So I’m talking to her, I’m like hey uhhh, no no no, actually all that bullshit about accomplice bullshit. Let me tell you why you’re an accomplice when you’re in the car as a robber. Okay, does that make sense? Right, now we can get somewhere. If you have any sense, we can get somewhere. The skin color doesn’t matter for that. We all love to talk about fucking skin color. Anyways, ummmmm, does that make sense why robber, okay. So these guys are in a truck, we know what they’re doing. No one’s committing a crime. Absolutely no one is. You know, all they’re doing is trying to actually. Uhh, they’re addressing the criminal. The only guy committing a crime in that. And they were trying to address that guy. Those arguments don’t work in any remote way shape or form for any decent democracy. Do you understand? Oh no, then bitch ass nigga wanna get up and start interrupting. Start saying [yadayada] and then cause chaos and then little girl crying. And then you like, oh okay, let’s do that. Democrats come, they burn the fucking cities down, they do all this shit. You say, Oh, I respect Trump [yadayada] whatever. You voted for fucking eh this guy. Before that shit happened, Democrats came, they burnt the fucking cities down, they burnt down black businesses. They fucking made chaos and you’re gonna reward them. Well, that’s a fucking poor thinker. I don’t give a fuck who you are. And I MEAN that shit. You don’t reward stupid shit. If you do that, cool, but stay away from me. Sorry. That’s The reason my life is nice even though I’ve been fucked up down left right is cuz I know what’s real. Okay. And I know you don’t reward stupid shit because. Come on. What can burning down a fucking neighborhood do for you that’s gonna be any fucking good? What are all of y’all retarded. Oh yes, this is good. [clap clap] Yes, they’re gonna get the reparations. Yes, yes yes yes. All this bullshit. Meanwhile, white people help out every black person in the goddamn world. Eh, but they racist, the media told us. These stupid people on TV, they keep telling us the same thing. I go keep listening to them. Yes, yes yes yes. Right, but you have an alternate opinion yet you still act like these people [oh yes yes, oh, retarded CNN, oh yes, Don Lemon yadayada yes yes] So, once again, advicethatmatters. It might get clear, you know if you actually read that shit. Uh, I obviously can’t put that much time into it right now. I got too much shit going on. Ummm, but you know, hopefully by middle of December. Eh, probably in a couple of weeks. I’ll be able to get back to all that stuff. Ummm, so, if you hear some shit. [Oh, I don’t like the way he said it, I don’t like] Listen man, life ain’t about fucking being comfortable and liking everything. Okay. Life is about growing. Life is about learning. Life is about xyz cuz guess what? You’re just eventually gonna die. And when you die, nobody gives a fuck, you know, your little family care, little people in your community care. Unless you actually changed the world while you were alive, nobody really don’t care that you died. They get the next person up to replace you as a nurse. When you retire, next person up. Cuz people still gonna need nurses to do whatever the fuck they do with the doctor. Whatever the fuck. Okay. Ummm, so you might want to start thinking about meaning. Mike Tyson . . money can’t make you happy, it just buys you enough time to realize you’re, to realize you Ain’t happy. Why do people say this shit? Why do people have quotes like this? Why is it so consistent? Why is that? Why why why? You think Mike Tyson was a racist? No, he loved white people. Everybody screwing black people is the fucking black people. Tupac, it’s my own kind doing all the killing here. Michael Jackson. It don’t matter if you’re black or white. It’s very consistent. Yet, some little faggot on TV can come on there and yes, yes, Trump a racist.

Covert Narcissist: Jimi, but what does that have to do with me? Like why are you sc

Jimi: What does it have to do with you?

Covert Narcissist: Yeah

Jimi: Cuz this is how you think. What do you mean what does this have to do with you?

Covert Narcissist: No, it’s not, it’s not. That’s not how I think.

Jimi: Okay, so I guess you’ve changed, you’ve learned, you’ve better cuz you definitely voted for Joe Biden. So there is that, so you can say it’s not how you think but you voted for Joe Biden. So I don’t know what to tell you. You Ain’t learn nothing in church.

Covert Narcissist: Jimi, I’m not racist. Clearly as you can see. Part of, two, I had two bridesmaids who were white. I hang out with people from different. I don’t know how many times I have to say this. I hang out with people from different races all my life. Literally, since I was in elementary school. My best friend was a girl from Bangladesh. [triangulation]

Jimi: So, how did you think Trump was racist? Yeah, yeah. Enlighten me on that one.

Covert Narcissist: So, I don’t even remember calling Trump racist. I honestly don’t. Like, you keep saying it, but they’re not my words. [she defintely called him racist]

Jimi: Ummhmm

Covert Narcissist: The only thing I said was I didn’t like Trump. That was what I said. I never said

Jimi: Okay, how did you not like Trump? So because some people called him racist, you didn’t like him? [silence] Ummhmm, how did you not like Trump? Because he said something about Africa, so obviously, yada now he’s a racist, right.

Covert Narcissist: Sure, you can speak for me. Okay. We can go with that.

Jimi: Go ahead, I don’t know. Go ahead. [silence] It is still recording. It needs to have some volume. Go ahead. Alright, anyways. Soooo, 

Covert Narcissist: We can go with that. Ummm, but I’m not like, I’m not racist. I don’t think black people are superior than any other race.

Jimi: That’s good

Covert Narcissist: I don’t think a cop should not have funding. Like I don’t get what kind of person you think that I am. 

Jimi: Right, Exactly.

Covert Narcissist: Like you, like I really think that you think I’m the worst of the worst. So

Jimi: No

Covert Narcissist: [play victim voice] It feels like it because you remind me of this every single time. It gets to every week. We’ll go out with your family. Oh yeah, she’s a Democrat, she thinks evil. She voted for this. To a point where your mom is asking me if I’m a Christian. Like it’s just, it’s everywhere we go. Dig after dig. You did this. Oh, like you, let me finish. Anywhere we go, you consistently point out my flaws. Everywhere. While I’ll go out with your family. Yeah yeah, she can’t swim but she voted for Joe Biden. Gas prices are high, yeah ask Lola. It’s like continuous digs. All the time. And then

Jimi: Yeah, you know why that is? You know why that is?

Covert Narcissist: Why Jimi, Why?

Jimi: So you don’t know why. You have no clue.

Covert Narcissist: I said it’s continuous. And then you

Jimi: Yeah the reason

Covert Narcissist: So the reason why you say why is because, oh yes, because I want to make sure that it doesn’t come up again. But I mean don’t you ever think that it’s crossing into the lines of you’re being hurtful and harmful. You’re not building me as your wife, as your spouse. Like I’m honestly starting to think what is the end game

Jimi: Right, so here is the problem with everything.

Covert Narcissist: Wait, I’m not finished. I’m not finished.

Jimi: Okay, go ahead.

Covert Narcissist: I mean like even me talking about music, you would say things like yes, you think you’re some special. You’re so genius. You’re a child prodigy. It’s like you’re always picking at me, digging at me. As if I’m your doormat. Like, you don’t even treat me like a human being anymore.

Jimi: Uh, it’s reality, so it’s the cockiness of what I see. Soo

Covert Narcissist: And I told you that I’m not cocky. We had this conversation

Jimi: You saying you’re not cocky doesn’t mean that you aren’t. It just means that you say you’re not cocky.

Covert Narcissist: I know I’m not cocky because everybody tells me that I’m humble.

Jimi: Right, so now you’re humble. Right got it. So,

Covert Narcissist: But seriously, I’m humble. Like I told you the things that I do at work. I gave you examples. And I said I’m not cocky in any kind of way. I don’t get why you’re saying this. Like, and then to hurt, like we’ll go out. You’ll literally embarrass me in front of people. We went out to Bradley’s house, your friend, and then you’re like yeah yeah, she’s a sugar momma. You said I’m doing the wedding only because of her. Because she’s saying all her friends are getting married. That’s the only reason why I did it. Like, you just [alligator tears – professional victim] everywhere we go, you’re embarrassing me [shame or embarassment is the worst thing for any narcissist]

Jimi: Okay, I don’t know. That’s alpha males. I wasn’t trying to embarrass you. So, umm, if we look at the. So, the reason that I keep going to the thing, which you don’t remember. And you don’t recall is how much turmoil happened. Which is exactly what the Democrats want. They want a house divided. Soo, I was actually about to say, it was actually about to happen today. Actually. But, because Gene did not come over, it didn’t really happen. But it’s going to be replay. We’re gonna be here screaming at each other while Eugene is in the room or whatever. You know, but that’s exactly what happened before. Right, we’re here because some dumbass nigga Ahmad Arbury faggot, right. Well, whatever the fuck. Some little dumbass shit the media told you about, right. We’re here screaming at each other and having arguments and whatever else, so you had real arguments with me about despicable people as if I give a fuck about them, and you probably didn’t know, you didn’t give a fuck about them, right. And you created real turmoil. Real turmoil. You created that shit because you couldn’t see the shit and you couldn’t see the truth. And then after all the turmoil you create with your little opinions or whatever the fuck, you then go and vote for a fucking guy you know nothing about. And is a complete loser by the way. I mean I don’t care if you know the nigga, the nigga’s a loser. His name is even Joe [laughter]. What do we say Average Joe? The nigga’s name is Joe [laughter]. Right, we got a great Trump, who trumps everything that’s in office that Jimi loves and then you’ve got this fucking complete loser. So, we actually have turmoil for weeks. Niggas is burning shit and we’re arguing about the shit. And then, after all those fucking arguments, you then go and vote for Joe. And then you say Oh, oh, oh I guess I guess, then went to the rally I guess. I don’t fucking know. Okay, oh, Trumps a good guy. Yeah yeah yeah. Hey it’s a little too late. I’m an action guy. You can see my actions, right. When I speak to you, I speak to you on actions. I don’t speak to you on no emotions. I don’t say [yadayada]. Your action, first off, y’all slow, most of y’all don’t know how anything works really, right. Most of y’all really have no clue how anything works. Ummm, so, most people don’t actually go out and vote unless they’re inspired. Like you got to go sit there, wait in line and shit, you know what I’m saying. The only people that do that shit is white people, right. That’s the only thing that, I’m like, okay, the white people got that shit. But Ain’t no black person gonna go sit out in no goddamn long ass line for a lack of inspiration faggot like goddamn whatever, right. So to think that Joe Biden won the election because you’re such a fucking dummy, that you really really think he won the election and then they’re like, oh, let’s look at all these statistics of the counties he won. Damn, he’s the only president to only win the important counties [laughter]. That shit’s funny as shit [laughter]. It’s just funny as hell from every perspective, right. You go and look at math. You’re like yeah this is usually when cheating is involved. But y’all didn’t take statistics so y’all have no fucking clue, right. Statistics can tell you if shit was cheating, you know, anyways, whatever. So, you go through all this turmoil and it was all pointless if you actually wanted to, you know, talk about reality and not talk about feelings and your [yadayada] and power all this bullshit. Go to advicethatmatters. You might get it. I, like, you know you might. So, you have this guy here, me, right, that understands a lot about a lot. And is really humble for what he knows because he knows that even though he understands more than just about everybody around him, he still knows very little compared to what’s out there in the world because the world is always changing. World is, you know. Anyways, I just know a lot about, you know. I could tell you just about how everything works, okay, so there is that. Ummmm, so, I don’t throw that shit in people’s face or whatever, but you think it makes sense to sit here, argue with me, continuously over some fool on television and their stupid little narratives and then after that you take action and go vote. I mean I guess you just went with me. I went, like I don’t vote. Like that’s kind of known, right. Maybe, I don’t know if you know I don’t, but I don’t vote. I don’t think it. I know statistics. You’re not going to really change shit by voting. Ummm, maybe, but probably not. Umm, so, I actually don’t vote, but I was inspired that I went to vote. So now I understand that aspect of things, right. Because if you’re inspired, you’re like, hey, I’m going to do everything I can to help you out, cuz I fucking love you. Cuz you inspired me. Right, ummm, soo, we’re sitting here having these fucking arguments for, you know, possibly weeks, which is exactly what the Democrats wanted. A house divided cannot stand. That’s another saying. Maybe it’s biblical, I don’t know. But you know, they want to divide, so that you can’t stand. So that they can conquer you. It’s all fucking right there. Like it’s just all right there. Ummm, so, for weeks okay and then you take action after all that shit of me trying to, you know, tell you what was up. You then take action, and then say, Oh, I want to be with you but you can’t tell me who to vote for. I say you’re out of your fucking mind. You don’t know how anything works.

Covert Narcissist: [Sigh]

Jimi: Which is why these guys are out in public. They can do whatever the fuck they want to do. They can go out in public. They can follow goddamn Ahmad if they want to. They can do whatever the fuck they want to do because it’s their fucking world too, bitch. You ain’t the only one in this motherfucker. Okay, so if they want to follow your bitch ass around because you Ain’t supposed to fucking be there, then let them fucking do that shit bitch, but don’t go start whooping nobody’s ass. Cuz you might get killed. So, you killed yourself you little bitch, if you understood how America works, you would understood that you killed yourself. And now niggas gotta pay, you know, pay they whole fucking life cuz you’re a fucking retard. Only reason they in jail is cuz your dumbass went there that day. That’s it! No other reason. And y’all think that shit’s okay. Yeah, fuck no. Ummm, damn. I probably missed my point.

Covert Narcissist: Well, you know what you could do? You could start a petition.

Jimi: No, I’m straight, I’m not starting a fucking petition. Are you kidding me? [random assignment to drain your energy] Why would I start a petition? Why would I say No, I’m straight?

Covert Narcissist: Why would you say No, you’re straight, then?

Jimi: I’m asking you. I need you to start telling me. You know how I always predict what you [yadayada] I need you to start predicting what I say.

Covert Narcissist: I said. The reason I asked for you to start a petition because you’re very passionate about it and the mob is ruling right now so you can start a petition

Jimi: So you wouldn’t start a petition because the mob is in rule. See how that works?

Covert Narcissist: So to

Jimi: Why would I waste my fucking time? Are you kidding?

Covert Narcissist: Ummhmm. Well, it’s because, like we’re sitting here. Me and you talking about Ahmad Arbury and I don’t give a damn about him. All I care about is you. That’s why, like, 

Jimi: [deep exhale]

Covert Narcissist: If you want to 

Jimi: Anyways

Covert Narcissist: No, like if you want to debate Ahmad Arbury, you can go debate your uncle or Gene or whoever.

Jimi: That’s not why I said that. I didn’t say that to talk about that. I said that because they’re free just like you are. So.

Covert Narcissist: Who’s free

Jimi: EVERBODY’S FREE

Covert Narcissist: Okay, yes that’s true.

Jimi: Yes, so I was just saying that they were free. That’s why I bought it up that time or I guess we can rewind the video and I can say exactly why. But I wasn’t saying it to, you know, discuss the shit. Or whatever the fuck you talking about some petition shit. Okay, that wasn’t the purpose of it. It was they can do whatever the fuck they want to also. We all can.

Covert Narcissist: Ummhmmm

Jimi: That’s why we’re in America, the most blessed nation in the world. You’re free. But instead, let the media tell you y’all being lynched and all this imbecile shit. Right, which, you know, is crazy. Cuz when I was driving with Seyi one time, cops came around, he changed everything. That nigga changed [laughter] I was like goddamn. That nigga woulda pissed me off if I was behind him. [laughter] Like what the fuck you doing man. Seyi woulda pissed me the fuck off, like nigga, go man. What the fuck we doing. That nigga started driving 45. It was 60 mph speed limit. That nigga started driving 45 and changed everything. He seen the cops. I was like, yeah I believe this shit, that nigga was scared as shit when he saw a cop. I ain’t scared of cops, so, it depends on what generation that you’re in. But it also depends on, you know, your bravado. Cuz I don’t give a fuck. If I was in his generation, you know, some people scared, some people ain’t. Yeah, I’m not scared today. I don’t think I’d be scared 10 years ago either or whenever the fuck he was there. I just don’t. Cuz I’m not just scared of people like that. Anyways, ummm, so we live in an amazing country and we argued a lot about this amazing country because that’s what the Democrats wanted us to do. And then you took the action, so anyways, I think I’m kinda done with that or whatever, but that’s why I’ll continuously say, hey, you know, blah blah blah. That way, right, it’s the same way you root out evil. Right, with Emmanuel, hey, I’m not giving you anything. Right, you give evil an inch, they take a yard. That’s another saying. Figure out why shit is like that, right. So, if I give you an inch and say, oh yeah, it’s okay to you know protest bullshit, well then they burn down everything and steal everything, right. We know you ain’t protesting anything of any meaning because everything you have up here is bullshit. So there’s no meaning to any of this.

Covert Narcissist: Yes and I agree with you.

Jimi: Right, but you argued with me the whole time. You argued with me for months or really weeks at the very least.

Covert Narcissist: Jimi, the only thing that I had a difference of opinion was the Ahmad Arbury initially. I wouldn’t say that we were arguing for months. Like

Jimi: For weeks, for weeks, we were. I remember being pissed off. And then you went and voted how you wanted to, oh, hell no.

Covert Narcissist: So the reason that you got pissed off when Eugene was in the house was because you said, hey, come. Like you were yelling at me and I was like, can you not do that with Eugene here.

Jimi: I don’t care about all that. See you care about looks all the time. I don’t care about looks.

Covert Narcissist: It’s not, it’s not about. It’s even with Eugene here or not, it’s like if you love me and you truly respect me. Jimi.

Jimi: Don’t bring all that cuz I’ve told you it’s been years of this shit.

Covert Narcissist: Jimi, listen. Jimi, Jimi.

Jimi: That’s why right now, I Ain’t playing no more. I’m done with the bullshit, I’m done with faking. I’m done with all that garbage.

Covert Narcissist: So, Jimi. Hello, hello. So you’re done with being affectionate.

Jimi: Uh, I ain’t say all that. What I’m saying is until you act right, shit Ain’t, you know what I’m saying, nuh nuh. I’m not. I’m not doing no bullshit. I’ve been bullshitting. I’ve been all not who I am. All this shit. You probably don’t care. But I do.

Covert Narcissist: You said that you’re done, like. You’re done being affectionate. You’re done being loving. Like, I don’t know what you.

Jimi: Yeah, once you understand. Once I understand who you. Once you understand who you talking to, then we’re good.

Covert Narcissist: Jimi, I’m not rude to you. I don’t disrespect you, like but this is becoming a pattern of you like, you’re not even you know. You continuously pick on me. You do. And it’s just like, I’ll try to be affectionate with you and then you’ll be like, Oh, yes, you voted for Trump. Yes, like it’s continuous digs based on what we talked about, and I apologized even in the letter which you dismissed that I wrote tonight. I said I apologized, you know, for not entrusting you the first time. I’ve apologized again and again and again and again about this.

Jimi: Why do I say, hold on.

Covert Narcissist: But you keep.

Jimi: Why do I say oh you say I get you all the time, I dig you I dig you, yea whatever. Why do I say, she can’t swim, she’ll drown. Why do I say that?

Covert Narcissist: You say it [nervous laughter] You say it when we’re out at dinner with your family. At your mom’s house.

Jimi: That’s not what I asked you. So you might want to listen to what I say.

Covert Narcissist: Because I can’t do it. You’re pointing out my flaws. Things that I can’t do.

Jimi: That’s why you think I say that?

Covert Narcissist: Well, I don’t know cuz it’s. Do you know how awkward it is? Like you’ll say things like this and your mom

Jimi: So why do I say it is my question? So think with your head. Once you have an answer, give me the answer. Intelligent people think before they speak on something that they may or may not know. So I’m asking you a question. You should know the answer to it. If you don’t it’s all good. I guess I’ll tell you here again. But, whatever.

Covert Narcissist: Okay

Jimi: Think with your head. Why do I say that?

Covert Narcissist: I don’t know the answer of you telling your family that I can’t swim, that oh, I voted Democrat, or that I think evil. I don’t know the answer to that.

Jimi: Okay. The answer is actually all the same. Because you should know better. That’s why.

Covert Narcissist: So is this going to be every encounter with your family?

Jimi: It’s going to be until you fucking know better. See.

Covert Narcissist: Like, why are you treating me like I’m an.

Jimi: Wait, what.

Covert Narcissist: Why are you treating me like I’m an idiot. I’m not an idiot.

Jimi: Okay, so you’re writing a composition notebook when you had a MacBook. So what do you call that? I want to get your vocabulary. What do you call that? [silence] Okay, so what I said was it’s all the same thing, right. You should know better. Here’s what you don’t get. First off, I’m practically an Olympic swimmer at this point, okay. People don’t have access to people like me. That’s what you don’t get. Okay. I had access to nobody to get to where I am. So I have to do everything, go through all the trials and tribulations on my own kinda like if you, right, were going through your trials, whatever, doing the sewing, whatever the fuck, I don’t know. The painting. Then I say, Oh, I want to be a painter and then you’re like, oh, I could, you know, I could solve everything for you. You could do a great job off the bat, right. So most people don’t have access to what you have access to. So when I say you vote for Trump or Biden, you had access to somebody that was saying Trump was the right guy. When I say you can’t swim, you have access to somebody that can swim, but you think it makes no sense to learn because, I don’t know. You tell yourself why you don’t think it makes no sense to learn. Even if that person tells you you need to be learning how to swim. Huh, how much have you done on your own for swimming? You went one day, say, Oh, I did good, I did good. Uh, first off, let’s kinda cut the little silly bullshit. Uhhh, most adults don’t usually compliment themselves, so it kinda, so that to me unfortunately kinda drives the Oh, some pride bullshit, whatever. Maybe it’s not, maybe it is, but it’s just natural for me, you know. Uhhhh, you let the trainer tell you that you did good. If I leave after I go through xyz and we’re basically fighting because you didn’t trust me, that’s not a good thing. But yeah, I did good, I did. Oh yes, I did good today [clap hands]. As if you did anything. Did you pay me? Did, you know what I’m saying, like what the fuck did I get out of this shit? Outside of I’m arguing with you after it’s all said and done. Okay, so you have access to somebody that can swim. That can teach you if actually just trust him and believed him. Yet, you do what you want to do, and think that I’m going to sit there and be like, Oh, it’s all cool. So right now, you’re doing your knee shit. You could’ve been done this shit. You could’ve been healthy as fuck for the wedding. But, oh, you’re gonna go sue somebody. Well, those guys make me feel good. When I tell my friends that I’m gonna go sue somebody. They say, Yeah Yeah yeah, you should. They make me feel good, Jimi. You see how that is.

Covert Narcissist: I never listened to them when they said they were gonna sue. I didn’t listen to them.

Jimi: You said you were gonna sue. I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Covert Narcissist: I never said that.

Jimi: You said

Covert Narcissist: I never said I was gonna sue.

Jimi: Anyways, all I’m saying is you listen to them. I don’t know. Well, I don’t know, maybe I’m having imagined conversations in my head. All I’m saying, you didn’t listen to me, cuz, you know, you talking about stupid shit instead of actually doing shit. Right, instead of actually taking actions that can benefit you. Or saying, hmmm, maybe I can learn from this. Like Jimi loves to do. Which is why Jimi’s life is pretty nice. That’s how that works. We’re instead talking about stupid shit that has no meaning. Like, suing somebody. As if you didn’t just watch me have all the evidence to sue a fucking liar and then lose a goddamn court case.

Covert Narcissist: Jimi, but, why are you putting that on me? I never said I was going to sue the person. I never said that.

Jimi: All I’m saying is there was something to learn from it and you didn’t listen to what I was saying, so you’d call me a hater. Or whatever the fuck you gonna call me.

Covert Narcissist: I never called you a hater.

Jimi: I know you didn’t. But it’s the process of what I’m talking about. You didn’t listen. We do know that. So, you can say what you want to say about what you called me, didn’t call me [yadayada yada yada] But you don’t listen to me. Okay, so I always have to tell you things 80 times. Right, and then maybe someday eventually in the future far out, you might say, Jimi, I finally come around and listened to you

Covert Narcissist: Jimi, why are you

Jimi: But, who the fuck actually benefits you in life. And then who am I supposed to be? Some little loser faggot that’s next to you? Now just think, when you listen to me, when you actually listen to me, just think. Cuz you know I bitch about you not listenting to me all the time. I do that shit all the time. Right. So it’s not like some new shit. Actually, for years I’ve been talking about this shit. But, when you actually do ever listen to me. Hmmmm. You know what I’m saying, I’m sure your knees are better, seem like you walking normal to me. Ummm, maybe you’re not, but probably are. Ummm, you know, whatever. You get all these amazing results that are actually real. And will make you feel good. No, not the, not the bitch that makes you feel good and then nothing actually changes in your actual life. Your knee still fucked up, but you know, Jimi’s way of doing shit where, Hey, Uhhh, Do XYZ, and then results happen, and you have to feel good. There’s no choice, hence, it’s hard for me to be sad because, I don’t know, shit, things are good. I might have one little person I have to deal with like the little faggot Emmanuel. Then you’re like, Oh, you’re so invested in him [yada] all this bullshit. Like shut up. What are you talking about? Nigga, I’m good. I’m telling you to express to him and you need to start actually having people respect you. Cuz I’m sorry, the way I see it, people don’t really respect you. Like they’ll be nice to you, or whatever. And [yadayadayada], but if you would ever say, Hey, here’s what I think, right. I don’t do that shit. So, unfortunately, you know what I’m saying. I’m not the youngest guy in the world. I’m not the oldest guy in the world either. But, if you don’t respect me, you can get the fuck on. I don’t give a fuck what your skin color is. Usually you’re going to be black. Usually.

Covert Narcissist: So, so what are you saying? That there are people around me that don’t respect me.

Jimi: Like, when you have an opinion. Like when you have something that you want to tell them. Then, you know, oh I guess, I guess, your parents or whatever. Then it’s like, Oh, no no no, no no no no, you know, nonsense, blah blah blah blah blah. You know, and then, Emmanuel, here, right. So I’m like okay, let’s see what she’s going to do. The nigga just, you know, basically kicked you to the side like you Ain’t shit and then, you know

Covert Narcissist: [sigh]

Jimi: You’re like, oh, well, let’s talk about some God bible verse. Yeah, cuz evil cares about the god verse you have in your head.

Covert Narcissist: He gave me a Bible verse, so I gave him one back.

Jimi: I don’t know. I don’t know what the fuck I saw, but I saw, ummmm, “Did I miss anything”? And I was like, Whaaaat, hell naw. Did you miss anything?

Covert Narcissist: But I, I

Jimi: After he called me a bitch, Ummhmm. You what?

Covert Narcissist: I mean I was put into a situation that I was completely uncomfortable with.

Jimi: Okay.

Covert Narcissist: I’m talking about the situation at the house.

Jimi: Remember I said being uncomfortable is good?

Covert Narcissist: At the house with the gun.

Jimi: Ummhmm, yeah.

Covert Narcissist: I was put into a situation.

Jimi: So was I.

Covert Narcissist: I thought that. Exactly. And that’s why I apologized to you and I said are you okay in the car. But you never showed that to me. Like, hey, are you okay with what you just saw? I’m, you know

Jimi: Well, I’m still worked up. And then this guy. Remember, remember, I said I’m not parking behind, in front of that faggot. Remember, that. So that’s called intelligence. That’s called I’m not stupid. I know how stupid people do shit. So, I could’ve been dumb as hell. Oh okay, I’m heeeerreee. Right. Like dumbass Emmanuel. He dumb as hell right. He think he so smart, but he dumb as it get. And he was like, can we get this car out of here so I can leave [laughter]. Remember his dumbass saying that shit. So, he think he so smart, but he’s really so dumb.

Covert Narcissist: I get that.

Jimi: Okay

Covert Narcissist: It’s just like that happened to me. You know, you didn’t ask how I was doing. Ummm, I was, I’ve never put in a situation like that before or seen anything as far as family arguing and then I would think that especially the you know we’re in our honeymoon phase that you wouldn’t bring me into a family feud when I’m really just, you know, trying to enjoy you and enjoy the journey that we’ve taken.

Jimi: Are you talking about going to the house?

Covert Narcissist: Yeah, going to the house, one. And then two, like, you know, calling me to curse out Emmanuel.

Jimi: I was going there because I was told to go there. I didn’t tell. I wasn’t told I was going to have a gun pulled on me.

Covert Narcissist: I know, but

Jimi: Annnnnd, afterwards.

Covert Narcissist: they should bring, did they say I should come?

Jimi: He said if she wants to.

Covert Narcissist: You didn’t, you know, I didn’t know that’s what we’re going there.

Jimi: But what did we do afterwards? Yeah, we went somewhere. Soooo, why the fuck would I leave you at the house? I wouldn’t.

Covert Narcissist: So, what I’m saying is you never approached me and said Hey, I’m sorry babe for what you saw. I know I was worked up about the gun situation. I’m sorry that you were put in the situation.

Jimi: Okay, but I don’t know what the . . . I’m not God. You know, whatever. I don’t know what to tell you.

Covert Narcissist: I’m not saying that you’re God, but it’s just like after that like being put in that situation and then to say, Hey, I need you to curse out Emmanuel and do this. It’s just like I honestly don’t want to do this like a week after our wedding.

Jimi: Yeah, I hear you, but I do. So, remember, I’ve still never talked to your family about anything. So, remember, I’m trying to get people out of my life that Ain’t talking about shit. So these niggas Ain’t talking about shit, so they need to be out, they need to be either in or out. So, I’m thinking, Oh, maybe he’s already told Emmanuel and we’re gonna get somewhere. That’s what I was thinking. Then I realized this is all bullshit. This nigga is the exact same, nothings changed. Then he wanna say I’m not going to answer your fucking question. So, I’m like I’m ready to go.

Covert Narcissist: I think we did say, you know, I, honestly, I didn’t even wanna be involved. That’s why I was playing with Carter the majority of the time. We were making videos and we’re. Like honestly, I was in and out of the conversation. Really.

Jimi: So you said he did say what. What are you talking about.

Covert Narcissist: So his, so like what I was saying was I was hardly listening to you guys conversation, in and out. I was watching videos with Carter.

Jimi: That’s an excuse. I don’t like excuses.

Covert Narcissist: Jimi, listen. Please, listen to me. I was purposely not trying to be involved. Right.

Jimi: Okay, so, what’s the point. Get to the purpose.

Covert Narcissist: So, I didn’t hear all the conversation that happened. I went out to the bathroom. Helped Carter to the bathroom. A couple of times to fix her plate, having conversations with her.

Jimi: [yawn] Ummhmm.

Covert Narcissist: But when you did ask him what is the purpose. What is the purpose of money, he said to spend it.

Jimi: Ummmhmm

Covert Narcissist: And then, that. And then, that, I didn’t pay anymore attention. Like all I knew is I saw you standing up. I didn’t even, like I have no idea what happened.

Jimi: Yeah, but obviously that’s not the purpose of money, so I said think a little bit.

Covert Narcissist: Right, but he

Jimi: And then obviously he didn’t want to think. So anyways.

Covert Narcissist: So,

Jimi: Uh huh

Covert Narcissist: I don’t know how everything escalated. You said that you pump faked Emmanuel. Like I honestly don’t know because I was not watching. So all the, you know, all this happened and it’s just like I got pulled, dragged 

Jimi: That’s like saying, Hey, uhhh

Covert Narcissist: Jimi, can I please finish

Jimi: What’s the purpose of sex? To fuck. Nigga, shut up, you fucking loser. See what I’m saying. It’s sarcastic. It’s bullshit. And then I say, no, think a little bit deeper. Oh, I Ain’t doing that shit for you nigga. Oh, fuck you. I’m outta here.

Covert Narcissist: What did he say afterwards?

Jimi: I don’t know. It was something to the effect of he Ain’t gonna do, you know, [yadayada] I don’t have to do anything for you. You know, all the freedom bullshit. Y’all love talking about your freedoms, but then, as soon as a white person wants his freedoms, Oh, he’s a racist. Ummm, soooo. [pause]

I can say sorry you experienced that. I didn’t know I was gonna experience that dumb shit, you know what I’m saying. I wasn’t going there, but as soon as I realized it was all bullshit. Cause I’m not gonna have little dumbasses talking to me. And then they want to make me the criminal. Hey, I don’t give a fuck if you want me to be your bad guy. I’ll be A OK being your bad guy. You Ain’t gonna see me ever again, but I’ll be A OK being. I could give a fuck less about shit and how shit looks. Okay, so, I go over there about to punch little fuck boy. And you know, fake punch him, just to make sure he Ain’t gonna do shit. You know, just to make sure he’s a bitch. Right, cuz you Ain’t gonna do that to me. You fake punch me, I’m a push you away. Cuz you can’t threaten me. Right. So, you actually can’t threaten somebody without allowing them to defend themselves. So you at least push them away. So I fake punch his ass. Of course, he Ain’t gonna do shit because he’s a little bitch. And then somebody want to pull a gun on me, right. But where did we go afterwards? Yeah, so that’s why you came. Okay. I wasn’t gonna be like, oh, now I’m gonna go all the way back home, and then go over here, right. No, so you came for that reason. Not cause I knew I had some stupid little uncle. None of them are bright. You understand? To be bright, you actually have to think. You actually have to work hard. You actually have to, you know, say what is right. You actually have to say, if that was my son, or if that was my uncle and my nephew in that truck, and then my nephew gets rushed. Would I be okay with the mob saying, Yes, yes, put him in jail for the rest of his life. Hopefully the answer is no, but I don’t know. Maybe some of you fucking lunatics think, yeah yeah yeah, that’s cool. Y’all are fucking lunatics. Do what you want but it takes work. Okay, I’ve done that work. These fuckers haven’t. I’m well aware of that shit. So when I saw, hey, this was all a bunch of bullshit. You know what I’m saying. I’m about to get the fuck outta here. I go threaten little fuck boy, of course, nothings going to happen. Fuck boy want to pull gun on me, cuz we know fuck boy Ain’t gonna do shit, over here. Then other fuck boy want to pull a gun on me. Nigga, you Ain’t gonna tell me how to do any goddamn thing in this goddamn America, you fucking losers. END STORY. The fuck! So, you telling me all these fucking people that fucked me over, all these weak ass fucks that fucked me over. That none my bitchass family who Ain’t talking about shit. Nigga, owe me 1700 dollars over here. This nigga over here owe me his life. Man, fuck all of y’all fuck boys. Yeah I’m your bad guy, so fuck you and I’m out. It was literally that fucking simple, but, you know, niggas wanna pull guns first. Alright, and then we go from there to Atlantic Station, which was the whole point, right. And then, it’s like, Oh, we’re going to have a good time anyways. We had just went to a movies there, didn’t we. Didn’t we see a fucking silly, you know, silly movie about basically child abuse [laughter]. Which is why they was calling the cops on him. Uhhh, yeah, soooo. That’s how that went down. And then you got, we still have the gift in the trunk I guess. Right. Okay. Cuz you weren’t gonna be there for her birthday. So there was many reasons why you could’ve been there or why you could have come. Ummm, anyways, you just have to know who you’re talking to. Who you’re with. I’m not soft. I don’t expect soft. So, the only reason I told you to go with Emmanuel is because you had an opinion. Sooo, I don’t respect him at all. But, hopefully he respects you. And you shouldn’t be scared to share your opinion with people.

Covert Narcissist: I’m not. I think.

Jimi: Well I don’t know if you are or not. Anyways.

Covert Narcissist: I’m not scared to share my opinion with anybody.

Jimi: Okay, so your opinion was, had changed, it seemed like. So I said, communicate that to him.

Covert Narcissist: So, my disappointment in him, I wrote it and I told him.

Jimi: And he didn’t care.

Covert Narcissist: Yeah, it’s not up to me if he cares or not. I told him what I felt about it.

Jimi: Yeah, but if somebody starts to talk shit about your own, you kinda need to, you know what I’m saying

Covert Narcissist: So, that part I, sorry, I didn’t catch it, honestly.

Jimi: Well

Covert Narcissist: Like if you started, honestly, I didn’t catch that it was disrespectful or anything like that. Like the thing that I thought was disrespectful was when he said, when I told him to be the bigger person and he said, I’ve always been the bigger person. That’s the only reason why I deleted it because I didn’t want to spark more fuels, or anger, or gasoline. That’s the, other than that.

Jimi: Oh, so you deleted all that shit.

Covert Narcissist: I deleted that one. Yeah, I deleted it because

Jimi: So that’s why I didn’t see it.

Covert Narcissist: Yeah, cuz I wanted to show you later. Cuz I didn’t, I thought that him saying that would make you more angry. 

Jimi: Aww, man. 

Covert Narcissist: But I think he was being respectful in what he said.

Jimi: That’s funny. So you deleted it. And then what I saw was, what I saw was actually quite disrespectful, actually.

Covert Narcissist: Yeah, I did delete that. So honestly, I, like I didn’t want to fight, like [alligator tears]

Jimi: I get that, but I do. So, right now, that’s what I’m telling you is to understand me. So I’ll do the same thing with your family. Okay, if I have a fucking problem, we gonna fucking solve that shit. 

Covert Narcissist: Like, I. Like when you [fake cry]

Jimi: Because I don’t need problems. Okay, so if you gonna be a problem. If I tell you I love Trump and you gonna poison my wife and keep on telling her about how Trump’s a racist. It’s a fucking problem. We gonna fix this shit, right now!

Covert Narcissist: Jimi, that’s not happening. So that’s why

Jimi: I don’t know. All I’m trying to say is you don’t want no fucking problem with me. That’s all I’m telling you.

Covert Narcissist: So that’s why I’m like, I don’t know why you re, so that’s why I felt like. We’re supposed to be celebrating our love on the wedding and then

Jimi: [deep breath]

Covert Narcissist: You know, you’re ready

Jimi: Dude, you celebrate that when people know who you are

Covert Narcissist: Jimi, I know but

Jimi: Yeah, but nobody knows who I am

Covert Narcissist: They know who you are

Jimi: No, they don’t

Covert Narcissist: They do

Jimi: Okay

Covert Narcissist: They know who you are

Jimi: If you say so. You don’t know who I am, how the fuck do they know who I am?

Covert Narcissist: Okay. [snaps object for fear]

Jimi: Anyways

Covert Narcissist: I don’t know who you are

Jimi: I don’t know. Uhhh, you do a lot of things that show me you don’t know really who I am. And you don’t know what I believe in and stuff like that. Which is why, Oh, well, uhh, uhhh, I think that [yadayadayada]. No. That’s not okay. It’s not okay to think that. And it’s not okay to ummmm, you know to have those thoughts around me. Now, yes, in America you can have those thoughts, correct. That’s correct. America is a free country. But, not around me. You can’t. So I had to explain to you in private, which is what a marriage is. You can say [I can vote for whoever I want to]. Whatever nigga. But that has no meaning to me because I can also date whoever I want to. What’s your point? So you’ve said nothing. Ummmm, also, what am I doing right now? Trying to, you know, do a website, I have a lot of other shit going on at this current moment, right. Soooo, you know, there’s there’s advicethatmatters, there’s jimiatl, right. You were doing the entrepreneurial route, but then I guess you quit. I don’t, well, actually, I don’t even know. You actually did. You helped me out anyways. Ummm, sooo, who knows if you’re actually still trying to. Well, Atlantic Station, you were able to meet a chick, right, whatever. Ummmm, sooo, I don’t like soft shit. Okay. Sooo, who do we, you have all these people around, right. So, I mean, I don’t know about all this shit or how I was going to get, get into all this shit. I just kind of know, some of the shit I was thinking earlier, which I wish I had the you know, whatever. But. So we talk about your friends. I don’t like soft motherfuckers. And I don’t like people who ain’t talking about nothing. Right. So I’m stu, I have a business. So if you respect somebody with a business, you try to give them business, right. Just like I was talking about you. You was talking about, I would just buy people’s shit, just to buy it. Not because I give a fuck about they shit. But just to show support, right. White people do that shit all the time. Unfortunately, you’re black, so I guess, you know, whatever. Ummmm, sooo, the friends. Emily, right. I take pictures at whatever.

Oh, someone give me 50 bucks Emily. Whatever, I don’t never get the 50 bucks, but she still gets, but she gets professional pictures done. Did she ever think about little black Jimi? [laughter] Anyways, I don’t care. I don’t care for Emily, but it’s just all soft shit. So it’s like, Ohh, but, you know, I like Emily. Same thing with Ellis. Ellis can sense that, that’s why she’s like trying to protect you from Emily. So it’s like, why can me and Ellis see the same thing, and then you’re just like, Oh, well, you know, all these nice people. Nooo, you need to fucking, you know what I’m saying, bravado this shit up. Cuz I don’t live that life. Like I know fuck shit when I see it. Oh, look. Oh, that’s a nice professional picture with you, your daughter, and your dog. Well I know for a fact I knew you when you got that dog. Interesting, very interesting. Oh yeah, and then, ummmmm. You know, you got your little Ovi story. That’s not as big a deal. We’ll see how things work out there. You know, but, it’s just. Hey, if you Ain’t about the shit, if you don’t understand what I’m doing, right. You on Instagram. I guess you don’t want to look at my shit. How does it benefit me that you say, Oh, that’s such a cool picture. And then I post the picture and then there’s no likes on it.

Where is the benefit there? Right? Uhhhh, you might want to like the picture, you know. Then I’d have two likes and not one like [laughter]. Ummmm, does it take, does there something, does it take something to like a fucking picture. You know, I get people say have, they can like anything they want to on the web. I get all that shit. But, you know. Uhhh, you know, niggaz trying to do whatever, right. Now, I actually do have something I’m doing and I don’t know, you know, whatever the fuck. But, there’s no benefit to, Oh wow, what a cool picture while taking it, you know, real time, and show you or whatever, or we go through the pictures. Oh, that’s a cool picture. And then I post it, and then there’s no like. You know, unless somebody else liked the shit or some stupid shit. Ummmm, so you know.

Covert Narcissist: The times that I’ve posted your picture, I mean, you don’t say anything.

Jimi: You posted my picture. Where, when?

Covert Narcissist: On my story, I’ll tag you. You never. You never say anything.

Jimi: Oh, what do you want me to say? Thank you or something.

Covert Narcissist: I don’t know. At least like it. You don’t like it. You don’t even say anything about it.

Jimi: I don’t really do stories, so I don’t know what to tell you.

Covert Narcissist: You’re tagged so you can see it.

Jimi: So you can like a story.

Covert Narcissist: I tagged jimiatl. Yeah, you can respond. I mean, you don’t ever say anything about it. And then it like more, like a couple times.

Jimi: So, so you can like a story. Anyways, umm.

Covert Narcissist: It just. It just. It’s like free advertisement.

Jimi: Okay, so what’s the issue?

Covert Narcissist: I don’t know

Jimi: So, I guess the issue is well, now I’m discouraged. Huh.

Covert Narcissist: You just said that I don’t like. Nevermind, it’s fine.

Jimi: Yeah, you tag. I’m talking about liking pictures on my page, okay. That’s your story. I don’t know what the fuck that, that Ain’t got nothing to do with me. I have a business page. Okay.

Covert Narcissist: Me sharing your picture in your business page with all the followers that follow me. I think it’s more than. It means more than liking your picture. I do like your pictures when I see them. Are you saying that I don’t like your pictures? What are you saying?

Jimi: Ummm, I’m saying telling me that you like my picture and then not liking it on Instagram doesn’t have any meaning to me.

Covert Narcissist: So you’ve never seen me like a picture on

Jimi: I didn’t say that. What I said was telling me, right, there’s a picture on there you said that you liked. When I took it at Atlantic Station, right. Brad, he likes every goddamn picture I post. That’s,

Covert Narcissist: Atlantic Station, well, Jimi, I haven’t been on Instagram.

Jimi: That’s actually how. That’s actually how I invited him to the wedding. I said, whoa, what the fuck, this guy is cool as shit. I forgot all about him. Right. I was like whoa whoa whoa. Oh, and then I guess he said he lost his phone or whatever and then. That probably happened to me too. I probably had that happ. I probably had the old phone when I met him, and then, you know, the numbers 

Covert Narcissist: You were saying you were talking about today.

Jimi: Yeah, yeah

Covert Narcissist: I haven’t been on the Internet today, Jimi. 

Jimi: Okay

Covert Narcissist: On Instagram. I haven’t.

Jimi: Sure, but, you know, there’s still plenty of pictures that are there. Ummm, so anyways. From, from other days. Like I said, he likes every picture. So then I realized, damn. You know what I’m saying, like when I realized I hadn’t invited him, I was like, yo, what the fuck. So, I actually. That’s why I invited him so late. Only two weeks before. Because he kept liking the pictures and I was like, wait a minute, this guy is cool as shit. Then I said, damn, did I actually invite him. Or whatever, so I actually invited him through Instagram. Right. So, he’ll be almost more supportive, you know, he’s actually pretty supportive. But he probably likes the pictures. I don’t know. Does it take effort to like something? I don’t fucking know. Is it like, Oh my God, Uhhhh, they’re gonna take away points from me or some shit. I don’t fucking know.

Covert Narcissist: No way, I’m looking. Like.

Jimi: No, I’m just.

Covert Narcissist: That’s why.

Jimi: Huh? That’s why what?

Covert Narcissist: I feel like you treat me like I’m your enemy.

Jimi: No, I’m just speaking about real shit right now. Cuz I just.

Covert Narcissist: It can’t be me.

Jimi: I just. I first told you about Emily, right? So, she doesn’t like professional picture with the dog and what’s her name. You know, her daughter, right. It’s all good and dandy, right. But, you know, I don’t really care for Emily. So it’s not like it’s a surprise to me. That’s all I’m saying. Sooo, what I’m trying to tell you is, you need to kind of like, start recognizing shit faster. Kind of like, you know, Ellis was saying the same thing. She tried to protect you from her. And she actually told me. She was like, I don’t care for her, basically same way I told you the same shit, right. But this coming from a chick. So now, you might listen. Who knows. Right, that’s how I feel about the shit. So maybe if you listen more when I say something, then I’ll feel better.  But, if I have to, get challenged everything I say, and have your little silly opinion, you tell me what you think, and then I have to sit there like I did [yadayadayada]. Nobody, nobody. Jimi don’t care for all that. I really don’t. And then I’m not going to naturally say, Oh, yes, she listens to me. Cuz now we gotta have a fucking fight for you to actually listen to me, which is insane. Cuz, and that’s why I say, hey, if I was living your life. [shhh] I don’t live your life. I really don’t. Now, I know I’m a bitch, right. You don’t know I’m a bitch, but I know I’m a bitch, you know. But, I still don’t live your life. You know, I still do what the fuck I do. You know what I’m saying. I ain’t living like no bitch no more, so those days are over. Ummm, but, you know, ummmmm. I don’t even know what the fuck I was saying. But basically, uhhhhhhh. I guess, you know the people who are around you, or whatever. They gotta be about some shit. You know what I’m saying. And if they not, hey, what’s up. Talk to them. What’s going on? And if they don’t talk to you, or they don’t respect that you said they Ain’t about some shit or whatever, deuces. It’s a free country, man. You know what I’m saying, I tried. But it Ain’t working out and I ain’t got time to waste my goddamn energy on you. So I got shit I’m trying to do. I want to put my energy on shit that’s real. And right now, you wasting my fucking energy. You gotta be able to recognize that shit.

And that’s just life man. So everybody has their hard life. It’s all hard knocks. Right, we all do some shit. We all wanna do some shit. We all want, we all want, we all want. The reason for our systems is so that we can moderate all those wants to create something beautiful. Right, can you imagine if every goddamn person that got mad at work, and start popping off and shit, and then they were able to ruin the company right away? Come on man, we’d never get anything done. Right, so we have to have everybody’s wants, moderate those. To create something beautiful. So you have to actually understand how America works to understand the American dream. To understand, say I want to pursue the American dream. We start loving America. And to be a patriot, okay. And you have to be able to communicate these things to all your people. Hey, I love America and what it provides me. If you don’t, that’s all good, but, you know. At some point, I might kinda leave you behind because, you know, the only way to really move forward is to be around motherfuckers that also think like me. People that want to say, hey, how can we together, whatever. Just like the fucking Koreans, right. We put 10 thousand dollars to this person business, this person business. Oh, why we can’t do that? Cuz we retarded ass black people. Or whatever, right. Cuz we retarded as hell. But I Ain’t even asking to put no 10 thousand dollars. Just, you know, let’s get like minded, let’s think like minded, let’s do some great shit. Okay, and you respect your husband. That’s ME.

So when I say some shit, I expect the shit to be taken seriously. I really expect it to be done, but I certainly expect it to be taken seriously. Which can’t be the case when you give me excuses up down left right. Here’s why I can’t. Here’s why I can’t. Here’s why I can’t. Here’s why I can’t. NO. I can’t move to the next level with that. That’s just going drain me. Make me feel, you know, whatever. Of course, I don’t talk about feelings all the time. Of course not. Why would I, I’m a alpha male. Feelings don’t do anything unless they motivate you to get something else done. That’s how alphas think. Right, that’s how we say, I need your energy. I need your negative energy to motivate me to kick your ass, right. That’s an alpha talking. So I’m not going [yadayada] negative energy, let me start crying. Oh my god, life is so hard [yadayadayada]. That don’t do nothing for nobody. Nobody going to take that and actually turn that shit into anything. That’s just going [yadayada] we can cry together, okay, we had a good cry. Okay, alright, now what do we do? Okay, NO. We need to take that energy, flip that shit.

Use that shit to motivate us and let’s move. Alright, I’m done with this shit.